dream of the end of the world

A guide to Japanese gay teminology I was pressured into creating.

Sat, 06 Mar 2010 08:34:26 GMT

I was strongly pressured to write this post. I am apparently the Queen of Gay Terminology. (I was going to be king, but we all enjoyed the implications of queen.) I'm sure I forgot alot, because, I am very sleepy. Also, they made me read the Gravitation Megamix before writing this, and it burnt. Badly.

Somewhere along the way, Utena became really gay.
No, not like, lesbians holding hands and suff.
I mean like, manly gay.

I have traced this to Terayama's play Baramon.
Baramon is home to the Gay Can Can, the girlyman I Love You Mr. Ken, the Gay Political Address and such. (Also some of La Marie Vison. Is Miwa in Baramon? I'm not sure.)
"Men are the best, money comes in second. Women are useless for relationships! Useless! The thing that shines brighter than the stars in the sky is men! Men! Men men men men!"
-The Gay CanCan, (Heaven and Hell) from Baramon, badly translated. (SUKI YOOOOOOOOOOOO) Also, the CD is covered in roses. Tis pretties.

Baramon means, the Rose Gate. In Utena, in the last episode, they must pass through the Gate of Roses, bara no mon, to... well, they don't really do it. But we're forced to assume its pretty cool. (AND GAY.) Regardless, they don't, and lesbians hold hands, and I won't spoil the end, cause for being over ten years old, a ridiculous amount of people sitll haven't finished it.

But, Ikuhara, the director, loved Terayama's works. Did he think of this? Did he even see or hear Baramon? (I think it was generally a lesser known thing and people didn't want it out in the world.) However, Ikuhara's dreams of working with Terayama were shattered, due to Terayama being like... dead and all. So he worked with J. A. Seazer. Cause, Seazer is awesome. And Seazer inherited Terayama's theatrical troupe, Tenjo Sajiki, which became Banyu Inryoku.

Anyway.

Generally, lots of gay Japanese things have Rose in the title.
I set out to figure out why.

...And I didn't really fnd out. D:
But I learnt alot.

People just... started calling gay things bara. in the 60's, the gay publication Barazoku came out, which called gay men barazoku, the tribe of roses. Barazoku recently has gone under, and many revivals have been attempted in the last few years, but none have been successful. Probably because, now gay men have the internet. Also, Barazoku had fewer pictures and manga. I had pictures of gay men and articles and... stuff. I dunno. I never read it. Also, Miwa-sama apparently liked it. AND YOU LOVE MIWA.

Geicomi and the bara forms of manga are generally by men, for men. They're usually filled with meaty man thighs, spectorals and hair. (In theory, if a man made stuff with less manly men for other men, I suppose it could still be bara.)

But generally, gay comics are called yaoi. I don't know why. I guess a non Japanese person thought it was a good name and named EVERYTHING that. Yaoi generally has several qualifications- it should NOT have a plot. There's a sentence for what it means. But i forget. I can only remember YAmete, Oshiri ga Itai! (Stop it, my butt hurts! Much more memorable.) Yaoi is generally just sex.

Boys Love / BL is the actual genre. (the BL genre used to be June, named after a magazine that was for aesthetically pleasing gay comics.) BL has them getting into eachother's pants, with plot points like romance and stuff.

Generally, assume that something like Junjo Romantica is BL. A short doujinshi based off it could be yaoi, because it will generally just get straight to sexy time.

Shonen-ai would be cutesy stories about boys falling in love, but they might just kiss and hug. They don't get into eachother's pants. The lack of sexy time in a gay romance makes it shounen-ai. (Which, translates to boy love, which makes these VERY unfortunate choices in terms.)

Shota is little boys. Stop touching little boys, that's illegal!

They've also invented new ways of boys love, like gachi muchi. Which hass more muscular or chubbier guys, often made by men, but usually made for women. It;s like, bara is infiltrating BL.

Fujoshi is a pun on a word for decent woman, and is sorta kinda like an otaku. Sometimes. Kinda. These are the kind of girls who watch things with YAOI-GOGGLES (tm) on. Prone to rabid slashing and seeing the gay in eveything.

A good fujoshi example would be Yinghua while watching White Collar. We have no idea if that show is intended to be that gay, but it REALLY seems so. ...Actually, you can see that without living in yaoi goggles, so maybe its not. Hmm. Well, you get the idea I hope.

Yaoi likes to be TRAGIC. Especially bara. (So I'm told.) This is apparently some kind of viewer/creator coping due to the real life status of homosexuality.

It also likes rape. Presumably this is to keep the uke, the guy that the other one is going at during sexy time, from being corrupted by the idea of sex. If he isn't willing, but the rapist loves him, he's still pure. I'm... not entirely sure how this works or become so popular, but hey.

While I'm at it, obviously, the seme is the one who is, uhh, being active, while the uke would be receiving. Everyone knows that. Figuring out which is which is apparently the trick.

On the ladies side, the magazine Barazoku also had coined the term Yurizoku, the tribe of lillies for the ladies. Yurizoku was generally lesbians, and they had their own small section of the publication. Yuri became the ladies versions of comics, but the genre doesn't seem to be as broad as yaoi.

Despite popular opinion, yuri would be the matching term to bara, not yaoi. (You know, they're both flowers, and have sorta similar roots, no pun intended.) Yuri can go from girls being cutesy together, to having sexy time. You can also have GL, Girls Love, like BL.

A ye olden genre of yuri is Class S, which was apparently banned way back when, and came around when girl's schools did. It's kinda schoolgirls havng crushes on the upperclass-ladies and what not. Or something. I'm not too wellup on this.

Shojo-ai is thought to be more girls being cutesey and lovey in a non explicit manner, but its apparently actualy just liking girls. As in, kinda underaged stuff. Sorta like lolicon, which is just ridiculously young. STOP TOUCHING THE LITTLE GIRLS. THAT'S ALSO ILLEGAL.

Regardless, when everyone talks about ROSES ARE VAGINAS. THE SWORD PENETRATED THEIR ROSE. ITS LIKE, MEN DOMINATING WOMAN IN A SEXUAL WAY.

No.

No.

That was just really gay. I imagined large hairy men kissing.

Oh look, a post. Another wil follow in five minutes.

Sat, 06 Mar 2010 08:22:12 GMT

So its been winter. I didn't sign up for winter. That's why I live in south Texas. What's with the seasons thing? I enjoy being able to more comfortably wear my suits, but my toes are always cold. And when my feet are cold, I get ridiculously sick for some reason. We even made Yanyan a house outside with HEATING. And he bitches and moans. Dude, you're a dog with heating. And a really thick fur coat. Wtf.

YanYan is also straight now. I do not like straight YanYan. He's a dick, and straight puppies have baby puppies. (It's reccomended we don't fix him, because he has lots of puppy problems...)

Once, YanYan was in gay puppy love. It was Paco, the chihuahua next door. We'd often find them... doing things. Horrible terrible things. But then, someone poisoned Paco. He died against the fence, crying for YanYan, who was on the other side. YanYan didn't move for the longest time. He moped for a long time. His puppy love was so very tragic.

But now, there's a mini dachshund. Whose mother won't fix her because... I have no idea why. She has the money, she just... won't. (I think she WANTS puppies.) However, the dachshund is pretty sure its mine.

YanYan apparently has something for small, funny looking dogs, and is now madly in puppy lust with Samantha. They sleep curled up together.

I don't want puppies! I don't know where I'd keep them. Also, I don't know what to call them. Cockshunds? Choxies? I think Choxies is probably copyrighted, and who would buy a Cockshund? (I know SOMEONE would, but do I REALLY want to know?) Maybe Coxies.
[edit: Jennifer assures me every fratboy ever would want one. Hmm. Maybe Cockshunds is a good name.]

Regardless, due to a horrible horrible mishap that involved scaring the sexy out of them, I had to clean dog semen off everything. I'd appreciate if you bleached me now.

I'm reading manga. It's kinda painful.
I'm also furiously hunting down the rest of Cat Shit One, cause I haven't been able to find more for a long time. They're apparently making a CG anime thing out of it though.

I need to make a portfolio. I'm thinking, I should paint the whole thing and bind it between two canvases. Or something. You know what, that's a horrible idea. Hrm. Maybe I just need a site like everyone else.

I've also decided to become a hermit, because people don't leave me alone the moment someone notices I'm actually online, the internet provides me with news on current events (tv too), and my computer is still evil. However, real life doesn't have Jeannie anymore, and this saddens me. :(

Real life also doesn't have Yinghua anymore, and I can't seem to function without her. You have no idea how much NOTHING I've done. Yinghua makes me do things, and I give her distractions. Good distractions. Now we're both missing the other and have become a bit dysfunctional.

Yinghua and I have evolved to the point we are the SAME PERSON. We went straight from doing EVERYTHING together to absolutely nothing. I think we're just having withdrawl. ...We still think together though. Whoo.

I redid my fishie home. (#4.) They look so happy. And delusional. Daw. Cake thinks he has babies! All by himself! (There are no babies.) But he's acting like it! I got a few new fishies. Along with my wild type, I have a half back marble and a platinum ghost. Also blushing koi. Daww. Also some kind of fancy plecostomus. I don't know my plecostomuseseses. I have no idea. I am however notorious for killing them, and I have NO IDEA why.

My koi is almost recovered though! Which is beyond amazing. I really didn't think it would make it past one night.

In the spirit of fishie business, I also have ridiculous fishie and pet questions from an answers site. (I don't remember which one, I did this a few days ago.) Of course, it comes with stupid answers. And a rogue sexy question too, wtf.

Will my goldfish die in my aquarium outside when the weather freezes?
I was actually joking about doing this earlier. And someone has actually done it.

My Betta just got beaten up by my GoldFish, they have been living just fun together for over the last 7 months so why the sudden change of reaction. Also is there a chance that she could be knocked up by the goldfish because she has a really fat stomach.
Yes. Clearly, the goldfish found out the betta is pregnant, and got pissed and beat it up for not being on the fishie pill. And now the babies will be multi species FREAKS.

My goldfish is turning black. This is really strange 2 me. before he turned n2 a black goldfish he was swimming side ways, i was for sure he was going to die, but now he is swimming norm but almost all black, does any1 know what or why this may be?
Wait... What?

I have a fish tank with guppies and platys and the two platys don't like each other and the little is attacking the big one and there both male should i let the big one die or give the little one back to the shop?need a quick answer ?????? thanks
Your fish need to get laid. No, I really mean it. D:

Generally speaking, aquarium owners do not give NAMES to their fish, as dog & cat owners do. True? False? Your thoughts? Examples?
...Sometimes. I only name some of my fish, mostly due to laziness. The only named ones right now are Cake and Asshole.

What kind of water should I put in my freshwater fish tank? The tap water I've been using gets a slimy film over the top after just a few days.
The hell is in your water?

One of my fish broke the floating glass thermometer in the fish tank, and all the "grey little balls" and "red stuff" (mercury or alcohol?) that used to be inside fell out. Is there a danger that the fish will be poisoned by the materials?
Jesus Christ, what kind of fish do you have?

I recently bought a 55 gallon tank and 50 goldfish. I have had them for 3 months approximately and wanted to know when I can expect mating
Dude. Dude. Why do you need MORE fish?

Would My healthy blue betta fish appreciate a girlfriend?
No.

Can activated carbon in my freshwater aquarium hurt my molly and platy? Petco advice to put activated carbon to help bring down the ammonia, It turned water black even after rinsing well. Fish started pooping black. Can this hurt my fish?
...It worries me greatly to even try and think about what exactly you have been doing instead.

Is it safe to feed my platys weekender food tablets every three days? By this I will eliminate the need to feed daily. I am not lazy.love my fish. get sad when they die but I feel maybe I overfed. Daughter says I over-tend my fish. tablet substitute flak
Can we replace all your food with vitamin supplements? Cause I mean, you could in theory live off just that too.

I just got a parrot and my pirannahs already ate it, what do I do!?
Wait wait wait.... WHAT?

Can anyone tell me if there is a way to clean aquarium gravel without emptying the aquarium and without buying that gravel siphone tube/hose? I have spent so much on fish, aquarium, chemical, etc that I can't afford to buy a gravel siphon. thanks.
...That has to cost like, what, $3-5?

What is the most economical way of testing my aquarium water? I am on a limited budget and the kits sold at store are separated by chemical I want to check for. Is there a kit that checks all that does not cost too much? Any other way to test water?
...I think alot of petstores do that kind of thing for free. And god, alot of fish people are really cheap. How did they become fish people?

Can glass marbles be used in a fish aquarium?
No. Just the sight of glass makes fish EXPLODE. ESPECIALLY in marble form.

Why does a fish hide in fishtank decorations?
BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LIKE YOU AND WANTS TO ESCAPE.

Can i use beach coral in my aquarium?
No. The fish will remember the wild, the go rogue and kill you in your sleep to escape.

Why does the water turn yellow in a fish aquarium?
Uhh... It does? What are you DOING?

Is glow in the dark paint toxic to fish?
I don't even want to know why you want to know.

I've a pond in England with 2 koi.The pond was frozen. pump broken koi died today. Is it too much food, the ice, oxygen or mucky water.
There is just so much wrong with this...

I've decided to go with hardy fish to cycle my fish tank. What are some types of inexpensive hardy fish that Petsmart, Petco usually have?
I'VE DECIDED TO MAKE A DESCISION THAT I CLEARLY KNOW NOTHING ABOUT.

How long can a hermit crab live without food or water?
My sister could have answered this if she didn't completely neglect them for a year. :(

What human medications can dogs take for pain?
Whiskey.

Why is dog skin associated with fleas?
Because fleas APPARENTLY find it delicious.

Why does a dog's breath stink?
BECAUSE THEY LICK THEIR JUNK ALL DAY.

Why does my dog constantly itch his ears&shake his head?
Because he's a dog. And dogs are stupid. ...Or he has a yeast infection in his ears. CLEAN THEM OUT. (Actually, I'm serious about that last part.)

Can rat poison hurt cats or dogs?
You should try it first, just to make sure.

I have an 11 month old cocker spaniel. She recently started crying/whimpering everytime she picks up a toy. what does this mean?
Nothing a cocker spaniel does ever has meaning. Ever.

Does anybody engage in full body sensual massages to spice up their sex life? Have you ever fallen asleep because it was so relaxing?
...If they're falling asleep, you're doing it wrong.

Are rabbits nocturnal?
Only vampiric ones. Like Bunnicula.

Tips to get frigid female rabbit in the mood?
I'd try buying her dinner first.

My rabbit has been very naughty lately. She has chewed on several things that she has never touched, jumped on things she never did before, and doesn't seem to back off when told "NO" or is sprayed with water. What is going on? This is out of no where!
RABBITS ARE EVIL. That's what.

I can hear the delightful screaming again today...

Tue, 19 Jan 2010 05:17:25 GMT

So. I'm typing in advance, to send to someone else to post. I'm so ridiculously bored.

(ooh, I'm posting. This gives me unwarranted self importance.)

And FURIOUS. Oh so furious. Hrm. I hate nurses.

Everyone calls me a vampire. So obviously I had to figure out what other people were.
People I'm onto:
Yinghua: A witch. a good happy one. (Threat level: Unknown)
James: A zombie. But a rich zombie, so an unwrapped mummy (Threat level: High- English Zombies are fast.)
Siegfried: A vampire obviously, but infected with werewolf. (Threat level: Don't care.)
Eric: A cait sith. :3 (Threat level: Adorable~)
Momo: Qilin (Threat level: None)
Chibi Violette: a futakuchi-onna. D: (Threat level: Moderate to High.)
(I don't know what Jeannie would be since there aren't any sexy hand mosnters.)

Regardless, I slayed a vampire recently. ...A vampire melon, but a vampire none of the less. It was the most delicious thing I ever had.

Been playing REsident Evil 4 again at home. In the living room since I have no tv. My family nags at me while I play.

About how my guns must suck since I shot that guy in the face five times.
How my character is wearing the wrong outfit for the job. (FUCK YOU ADA)
I shouldn't be shooting monks in the head, and what is that thing coming out of their neck?
My firing patter is horrible for a Thompson and I should be ashamed.
I'm wasting too many bullets and I shouldn't get the idea into my mind that that's correct.

Nevermind the exploding heads and blood and such.

Leon went "SHIT!" once though, and they got offended that children shouldn't be hearing that. It worries me more that they sesem to think headshots are good for children instead. (mmm... plagas...)

Also, unrelatedly, before I resumed playing, we named my faithful slothy companion Wesker. (Yinghua and Jennifer kinda did anyway.) I think Wesker is stealing my medication, which, is veyer appropriate, with that whole pharmeceutical business and whatnot.

However, I need that stuff Wesker. Give it back. >\

So we've considered suing not one, but TWO hospitals. (We're THAT lucky, yes.) The EMS people chose the hospital, and by the time we noticed, it was too late. House would be ashamed of this shit. (Hints: Several incidences,not limited to, but including a cage, blood EVERYWHERE, concussions and a fuckton of drugs.)

Neighbour tried to sue my sister and I for driving out minivan out of the garage and into his truck.
I don't have a minivan.
My garage is occupied.
I was sick, she was asleep all day.
There wasn't a driveable car home, and none of them could have made that dent.
Fuck off, if I said the same thing to you, you wouldn't care.
A tree trimmer who couldn't speak English got his boss to say I or my sister did it, in our black minivan. He couldn't decide WHEN it happened, with a five hour variance, and I DON'T HAVE A MINIVAN. The tree guys MUST have done it themselves, cause they are bent on trying to prove I did it. When they said we pulled out of the garage, we knew it was LIES, and now the neighbour's like HRM.
If it was a black CAR, it would have been me or the phantom SLK. But it wasn't.

Got new fish. Several times. I really need to stop buying shit at petco. It's always contaminated food, or it DIES. And this seems to be a common occurence. ...Well, Cake didn't die, but he's totally a fish they shouldn't have had and was wrongly sold you assholes. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW BIG HE IS. Went to superior petstore and got new babies. and cookies that don't make yanyan and samantha puke everywhere. >\

Currently haaaave:
A rather large Leopard Plecostomus
Cake, the demon sorta-angel
2 medium blushing koi
1 medium half black with a touch of marble
a few groups of inconsequencial fish that I honestly don't care about.

I need to do a full cleaning, but I CAN'T MOVE CAKE. He's that damn huge.
...Also, my plecostomus is past that point that they get terrifying.

And I'm pretty sure the half black one is going to die. Over the last few days, I've noticed, it... plays dead. O__o But if Cake or the plecostomus is coming, it goes AHHHHHHHHHH and swims away. After the attacking fish takes a few nips and leaves, it gets up all cool, and goes back to... swimming and whatnot.
...Or its trying to find love.

I also rated my pets by mental capacity. highest to lowest.

Dachshund
Angelfish
Cocker Spaniel
Marimo
inconsequencial fish

Plecostomus cannot be placed due to its eccentricity. They might be evil and or crazy.

Samantha can hear me coming from the car. My angels can see me and swim towards me when I'm rooms away. YanYan runs away when I feed him, and Paul just isn't more stupuid than the filler fish.

Seriously though. Angels and goldfish are trainable. They can recognise colour and whatnot. If I keep bringing their food in the same coloured cup, and I wave something else that colour in front of them, they swim to the surface for dinner. Since the vaccuum hose is blue, everytime they see something blue, they start splashing and hiding. Inconsequencial fish just don't seem to do that.

While I'm at it, Samantha is ridiculously smart. After she stopped like, stealing my socks and leavng them all over the neighbourhood anyway. I've made ZERO effort training her, and she's consideraly smarter than YanYan. Her only problem is, she's terrified of everything, but she's still very willing to take everything on.

Unfortunately, she isn't smart enough to stop trying to eat every god damned thing, and I don't like reaching down her throat to pull things out. XO

Yinghua and I also joined a cult on accident. (We needed to to graduate you see, its a long story...)

Yeah, that sucked. Hard. We hated every moment of it.

Pros:
I didn't kill anyone
Sitting in on cult meetings was on my life to-do list
I made them all make a stupid face
I beat the cult system
I might have gotten exercise
I got to see lots of thighs touching, oh double lotus.

Cons:
I didn't kill anyone
I joined a fucking cult
Mariko hindered my abilities to make them look stupid with horrible drinks.
I had to sit in on too many cult meetings
I should have chosen a lazier cult
I got to see lots of thighs touching, oh double lotus.
I murdered my spine. I can't sit up anymore.

This cult didn't predict the end of the world. (I think? I don't think they did.) They also didn't directly have a doctrine that tried to kill me, though they did murder my spine.

We were supposed to surrender our entire lives, and it was the only correct way to live. Our deaths would be more pleasant if we submitted. Our idiotic leader was the only person who knew the true path. I was made an example of many times, and the only reason Yinghua and I suck is because we're not good enough. This is the only way to finding truth, and we must give up our own selves to blend with everyone else. It also used another religion as a basis, and tore down other similar methods on the basis that they're 'doing it wrong.' If we quit, we were LOSERS.

Cult life was certainly not for me, as I complain far too much. I was made into an example many times. Eventually we pretended to agree, and they left us alone for the most part, except for talking about how horrible we used to be.

Reasons I can't be in a cult:
I can't take anything seriously.
I have too high an opinion of myself.
I'm not good with authority.
I'm not dedicated enough for strange lifestyle changes.
I can't take the giant whole seriously.
I question every damn thing.
I really like screwing with people.
I can't read things that I'm told to.
I can make up an argument for ANYTHING.

I'm ridiculously sick. It's been a really long time and I'm still coughing blood and every breath feels like I'm breathing underwater. I can barely stand up and such, and I don't like it. >O
If I were still in that cult, it would be because I'm not good enough at cult like business. Also, they'd disprove of medicine.

Which i've taken lots of, and it just makes me pass out. Nnng. I don't need medical care, I need to switch bodies with someone at this point.

I fear I've grown allergic to feathers, which, would suck, being that I live in them and all.

Fanmix fun.

Thu, 07 Jan 2010 23:42:13 GMT

Hmm. I've done nothing lately, except for HORRIBLE TERRIBLE things. So, in this brief moment of internet, here's a fanmix. It has Utena business.

It's so fanmixy. Also, its under this cut right here.

I'd also like to remind you that I own nothing. NOTHING AT ALL. I dunno what YOU guys are doing with this stuff, but don't look at me.

Utena and Anthy
[Queen]
Save Me

Each night I cry
I still believe the lie
I'll love you 'til I die

Utena
[Spice Girls]
Viva Forever

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,for the moment
Ever searching for the one

Anthy
[Rasputina]
Gingerbread Coffin

Oh, Lay her down in her gingerbread coffin.
She's so pretty all layed out in white.
Lay her down in her gingerbread coffin.
When we need her, she'll rise to the light...

The Prince and the Rose Bride
[PANIC! At The Disco]
I Write Sins Not Tragedies

What a beautiful wedding!
And yes, but what a shame
What a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore

Wakaba
[Blondie]
Dreaming

I never met him, I'll never forget him.
Dream: even for a little while.
Dream: filling up an idle hour.
Dreaming is free.

Touga
[The Cure]
Boys Don't Cry

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Ruka and Juri
[Zed]
Come On Down

Since I've see what you're gonna be
I couldn't leave that loaded gun in your hand
Said no no no
Well I wish...

Akio
[Nine Inch Nails]
Mr. Self Destruct

I take you where you want to go
I give you all you need to know
I drag you down I use you up
...and I control you.

The Black Roses
[Franz Ferdinand]
The Fallen

Did I see you in a limousine
Flinging out the fish and the unleavened
Turn the rich into wine as you walk on the mean
Well the fallen are the virtuous among us

Mikage
[Marilyn Manson]
Personal Jesus

Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who cares
Your own Personal Jesus
Reach out and touch faith

Akio and Anthy
[Garbage]
The World Is Not Enough

The world is not enough
But it is such a perfect place to tart my lve
And if you're strong enough
Together we can take the world apart, my love

Duelists
[Bauhaus]
Who Killed Mr. Moonlight?

Someone shot nostalgia in the back
Someone shot our innocence
In the shadow of his smile
All our dreams have melted down

Anthy and Utena
[Within Temptation]
Somewhere

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever's happened,
The truth will free my soul

Take My Revolution

Coverart, tracklisting and songs in here. Ding ding!

Will Eric believe me if I tell him chicken is just the tuna of land?

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 01:30:59 GMT

So I've learnt there's no chance in hell I can pass the physical I need because I'm going deaf, and... you just can't train your hearing. D:
Oh well. I don't need people shooting at me anyway. And I still can't afford to hear. Yeeeeah...

I could write about meaningful stuff, but I'm not going to, since I have absolutely lost my mind.

So in the meantime, since my computer hates the internet, I've been reading manga. Oh, the manga.

Queen of the True Heart: Princess Diana
Continuing this one, since I only read the first book. And yeah, its about THAT Princess Diana. She's so shoujo. But Charles isn't. And it makes DRAMA. I can only assume it ends with her unhappy or dead in the end. I mean, really. (Or not, since, I'm almost at the end?! Whaa? How can you end this nicely where I am, wtf.)
These aren't main characters.

See, we even made a wonderful way to remember it. Wakaba, Diana, gets married to Saionji, Prince Charles, but Camilla, Nanami, is displeased, so she gets a servant, Shiori, who's grandmother, oooold movie Utena, is sick with cancer so she needs to make money, to take unflattering photos and make rumors. Wakaba befriends the stable boy Miki, who eventually confronts Saionji, and get's the blue beaten out of him. (She also likes another tall, dark, mysterious servant. He will be Ruka.) Then Wakaba's brother, Tatsuya, comes to visit and also gets in a fight with Saionji. Trying to stop them, she runs at them but falls down the stairs. In the hospital, she learns she is pregnant. She meets oooold movie Utena while she is there, and she wants to see her darling Harry, movie Touga, before she dies. It turns out he's already dead, and she mistakes Ruka for him, and dies happily. Shiori learns move Touga is her daddy and really did love her. Nanami seduces Saionji, but he misses his darling pregnant Wakaba and runs home to her.

I ASSUME Wakaba will name her son Touga, but I haven't gotten that far.

It's... pretty unpleasant. But kinda hilarious.

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei

I have no idea, I didn't read this chapter.

In the middle of book three. It's...kinda the same thing as the show, and since I can't buy the show here, I bought the manga. It has more Rin, which I approve of. It's very plesant and more ahahaha~ oh zestubou sensei~

Junjou Romantica

Hey, shh. Shh.

DON'T JUDGE ME.

Litchi Hikari Club

OMG BOOBIES?!

IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL. It's like, everything I've ever wanted in a manga. It's also very unplesant, and I can't really explain it well.

Antique Romance

They're so frilly and gothy.

So this guy buys a living painting thing, and its this little girl. She's apaprently not human. But she used to be. But she sin't anymore. Did they paint on a loli and go VOILA!? Did they kill her and bring her back as a doll painting thing? (I'm forced to assume its something like that, but, it really seems to be the first.) So this rich dude buys her, and no one can decide if she's his daughter or girlfriend or what, especially them. And people want to make DRAMA out of it. It's... suspiciously unpleasant. D:

Mr. Arashi's Amazing Freak Show

...This is a pretty accurate representation of it.

I've found half of this. I want the actual book, but its out of print, and I can buy a used copy for way to god damned much. I have the movie (delicious Seazer), but I'd like to read it too. (I'd also like the OST. wah.) It's about a girl who gets sold to the freak show and how absolutely horrible it is. It's... also unplesant, yes.

Damned Sun

DON'T DO IT DDDD:

The saddest oneshot I ever read. oh god it was so sad. ;__;

Man, I don't wanna think about Christmas right now. I've bought ONE prsent. Nnng. Allegoriest, couldn't you be better using this time to go shopping? No. I have vertigo and no legal car.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 18:10:53 GMT

Meanwhile, I'm still on the urge of mental breakdown.
(Also, I forced an entire class to make stupid faces. But mariko made me sick from Incarnate Word snacks and I couldn't make my GLORIOUS lion noise. BOO. I've caught paintings on fire too.)

Eric Month has given way for PAUL MONTH, which contains the holiest of all weeks, the true Paul Week. (It also has Christmas!) Paul Week begins on December 21st, and ends at midnight on the 27th, for optimal Paul birthday celebration.

Why are there beans on my floor? That's odd.

I'm very cold. I don't have a heater, so I turned the overachieving a/c off. I'm freezing. Probably because of my glorious wall of windows.

Decency is the virtue of Sarah.
Chain smoking is the virtue of Paul.
Beauty is the Virtue of Siegfried.
There is no virtue of Momo.
Being asymmetrical is the virtue of Leene.

Marionette! Sensei mo petto! KYUN KYUN KYUN

I'm supposed to be writing about Gnostic gospels and I REALLY don't want to cause I'm supposed to talk about writing a new gospel with them, arranging it and explaining why, and, I haven't arranged crap.

I miss design school where I just wanted to fall over dead from the weeks of no sleep. :(

Momo isn't online and Paul is. He distracts me. Alot.
Paul: Nooo don't do it be lazy and pretend you're touching meeee
Momo: GET BACK TO WORK YOU LAZY BASTARD

Sarah is socially brushing her teeth.

I need to stop writing on paper cause then I need to type it out, but I have a paper fetish I think. I spend far too much on paper. :(

I'm considering hiring someone to sleep in my bed before me to keep it warm, but I have no money. Also, I'm deathly afraid of cooties. RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA

I also drew a picture of myself and Mr. Blue Eyes, but we can never be together, for you are perfectly symmetrical.

OMG CEASAR IS HERE. I feel a horrible urge to catch him on fire, but I still need my living room for the next week. Mr. Blue Eye's pasty black and blue colour combination is uncountably better than your monochrome. (ET TU, LEENE?)

I'm 99% sure Sophia never said Ringo Mogire Beam. Do you think Jesus did? Can I add it anyway? I really just want to go play games now, thankyou. :(

Or see Utena. I still haven't finished the anniversary edition. I NEED TO HEAR THE RIDICULOUS NEW SOUND EFFECTS. The god's name is Abraxas sorta. My favourite is the only straight one. He's very asymmetrical.

I seem to still be doing the rumba. Hmm.
God has become corrupt, wearing that bitter smile. Forcing marionettes to dance as they fall to despair in someone's hands, because slitting paper mache necks is okay on stage. Bloodshot eyes laugh and do the backwards rumba.

But my eyes aren't bloodshot. They're MINTY. It's very very uncomfortable. :(

I have three sentences and one isn't really a sentence. D:

I still have no idea what day it is cause of that time a few months ago when I changed the date to cheat on Dissidia and apparently, I use my psp for that.

The last two fingers on my hand are trying to infect my arm with their stupid and its making my elbow feel REALLY weird and I wanna lay down on itttt. I don't wanna sit up anymore, I'm so lazy. Nnng. Those fingers are LUCKY I need them to wear my rose signet.

...Can I kill of Jesus first? Yinghua says no, but I think its cause I said 'kill off.' I think I will.

This is exceptionally difficult with this mad hatred I have of a creator god and all.

OH GOD ITS TOMORROW AHHHHHHHHHH

WRITE LEENE WRITE

I'M SO COLD

Oh wait, we're still doing the rumba?
RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA RUMBA

Who decided what I'm worth? When tigers and panthers are inside my heart. They have no idea of the beasts lurking within. Liberate us from the thoughtless value we've been given!!

Seriously though. I'm freezing. It's hard to work when you're frozen.

OH GOD ITS NOON AHHHHHHHHHHHH

My own birth! Absolute birth! Apocalypse

Okay. Gonna write about killing Jesus, then error, then how the world sucks, etc etc, then have a short Jesus-y story. Nng. GOTTA WRITE.

I'm gonna post this everywhere, just so I don't have to think there's something else I COULD be doing. Hrm.

DARKNESS OF SODOM
DARKNESS OF LIGHT
DARKNESS OF DISTANCE
ENDLESS DARKNESS
THE ABSOLUTE DESTINY APOCALYPSE
THE ABSOLUTES DESTINY APOCALYPTIC DARKNESS
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO
MOKUSHI KUSHIMO SHIMOKU KUMOSHI MOSHIKU SHIKUMO

yeeeeah... I don't think I'm gonna finish. D:

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 17:58:22 GMT

Recently, I have lost my mind. I've gone batshit insane.

Further proof is that it's 6:30 in the morning and I'm awake. (But I am miserable.)

I'm actually cooking right now, so shh.

Things that have happened recently:

I completely lost my mind.
I've caught lots of things on fire.
I can't see Mexicans. Especially Chibi.
I'm told I lick James' everything, for the taste.
I have a dachshund.
I think I like myself even less.
I think I like myself even more.
I have learnt Mexicans have stolen and perverted wienerschnitzel.

I'm awake to make sure the house doesn't catch on fire, and to baste. (You say it is stupid, I say it makes me feel better and fuck you, that thing heated up pretty god damned fast.) Oh, i'm like, trying to make a turkey, cause, I have a free turkey, and my aunt's food is terrible. She buys a premade one from a bbq place, and by the time we get it, its made of LEFTOVERS. Uhh, no. There are some things you just can't buy, cause places are kinda closed the day you need them, and they're icky after the day of. (And you thought it was because of love.)

I was gonna make dressing from turkey guts, but no one else wanted them. So I was gonna make the for the dogs, but the kidneys were REALLY scary. So they got heart and liver. Daw. YanYan especially needs them, because his hobby is watching other animals eat his food.

Also, I've learnt I REALLY hate animal people. People who say I need to only let the best reproduce, and put animals with any issues to sleep. (Protip: Yinghua and I would probably have been culled if we were puppies!) They seem to live in some sci-fi (syfy?) world where we take Darwinesque businesses into our own hands.

If I can do these things to puppies, I also require abortions and pulling the plug on people, as well as killing the miserable. (No, we don't need to kill all old people.)

They all also seem to hate chain petstores, while most all work at them. (Which is ironic, cause they kinda can't work without them HAH i'm poiting everything out cause its EARLY.)

Though Petco is totally a bunch of douchefags for selling me wild fish while claiming otherwise. Cause you know, the one I have kinda demands a really different PH and all, and, I kinda can't get more fish now. Fuck you guys. Not to mention, its EVIL since it like, isn't overbred into STUPID like most farmed fish.

But anyway. You can't just kill something off because its old. I mean, there's a point when it is indeed pointless suffering, but dude, if it were say, your grandma, that's completely different. Don't give me this 'they're like people' and 'they're my family' crap if you won't kill your grandma cause her hip hates her and she's slow. None of this, oh, we're taking the old Buick to the all you can eat! WHOOPS, just kidding grandma! You BASTARDS.

I accidentally bought Soul Calibur for the PSP. (Hey, I was in line 20 minutes, first person in it, and they didn't HAVE the game I was buying. Soul Calibur popped in my head cause I was talking about it the night before, and 20 minutes, I had to get SOMETHING.)

So quick battle has you fighting like if you were in an onilne thing. It has fake opponents fighting with mostly custom characters.
Fake characters are prone to SUDDEN nakedness.
Most female characters, you really won't notice since they're already scantily clad.
Most male characters are apparently in tighty whities underneath their outfit of badass. It's pretty okay, cause, I kinda have it just to beat the living crap out of other computers when I'm bored, but, I wish I could choose the opponent in quick mode and all. That's it! Nothing more. Also, I made stupid custom characters. Yinghua fights like Cervantes! :D

(TURKEY. SMELLS. SO. GOOD.)

I read most of Sailormoon last night.

I have learnt thaaaaat:

It is holy in that it is MADE of plotholes. (holey?)
Naoko Takeuchi cannot draw.
She also doesn't know what an eraser is.
Imagine the main characters having sex. Do it. You CAN'T. Even though they kinda DO in the course of the manga.
Everyone is gay. They have to be. I mean, its fact Darien is, but that's WAY too many chicks kissing to claim only TWO aren't straight.
I tottaly prefer English names.
Reading Sailormoon at any point in your life will stunt your artistic growth by ten years. ...Okay, seven, but NO LOWER.
I cannot STAND sailormoon's character.
Dude, seriously, wtf.

She needs to draw these poses naked. Really. I mean, no one else has ever been SO guilty of just making LEGS come out from places. I'm 100% certain she CANNOT draw unless they have clothes to just throw legs under. Also, she seems to have somehow gotten WORSE with time.

The story makes NO god damned sense. (This could SO be translation issues, but I bet its on both sides.) EVERYTHING has an EVERYTHING. And this EVERYTHING will come from NOWHERE or be important then NEVER mentioned again. Also, screen tones have NEVER been so EVERYWHERE. Action scenes are pointless, quick, and EVERYWHERE. Also, no sacrifices are made. EVER.

Oh hey, my food is done. Too bad I'm sleepy as FUCK.

Also, I had the FREAKIEST dream that I was supposed to pretend to slit Jeannie's throat and be just generally creepy so she could get some weird sexy thrill out of it. DDD:

Eric likes to think the E in E. coli stands for him.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 04:11:31 GMT

But I don't have Eric coli. Imagine, all the little chibi kittens, swimming in my blood. DAW.

Wanted: Gay mariachis in love, willing to be married.

Okay. So we're looking at wedding stuff. (Don't ask. Also, WTF SELLING YOUR PERSONALIZED HONEYMOON THONG ONLINE.)

But you know what's completely cool to sell afterwards? Your tux. I mean, by the time you wear it again, it'll probably be a different size. Plus, they all look the same anyway. (Something about only a gay dude would be sentimental enough to keep his tux.)

This bothers Yinghua apparently. She wants a tuxedo for embellished sleeves. One that's worth keeping. She was thinking with glitter. I was thinking rhinestones. (yeeeah...)

Then it hit us. THOSE LITTLE METAL THINGS ON MARIACHI UNIFORMS. (Botanaduras? This site is in Spanish.) Anyway. Yeah. Those little metal things mariachis have on their pants and crap. They're clearly the only ridiculous thing fancy enough to embellish something so... fancy. But how would a mariachi wedding work? Do you need to play too? Do you invite rival mariachis to play?

But mariachis are hilarious. Seriously.

Not because of their ridiculously multifaceted repertoire of songs, and those strange strange noises they make. (Fact: Mariachis have played every song EVER. I'm certain that somewhere once, a mariachi group has played that HEY HEY YOU YOU I DONT LIKE YOUR GIRLFRIEND song. I remember a point in time where there was this one place I'd go and they'd always be like MICHAEL JACKSON? No. I do not want Mariachi Michael Jackson. Eventually, I got it anyway.)

Mariachis don't go sleepies and go goodnight. They go good morning. 4 in the afternoon is an early party. That's awesome. (Well, unless you're one of the ones working downtown. Those are like, 24/7 mariachis. The VERY IDEA of 24/7 mariachi is RIDICULOUS though.) Right now, there are mariachis playing.

Mariachis are everywhere. They appear in the strangest places. I've run into them in parking garages, in elevators, hallways, bathrooms, even my own backyard. They're like ninjas. But loud. And shiny.

Mariachis come in many flavours. There's the shiny ones. Then the old less shiny ones. Then the evil hippies who think they're mariachis. There are suspiciously young mariachis. People you would never expect might really be mariachis. I've known so many people that have turned out to be full on mariachis at night. (Fact: I can't afford any of these mariachis.)

Mariachis can sneak up on you in the dark. Their uniforms are camouflage for stars in the night sky. But SUDDENLY, they unleash their cry of MARIACHI and everything is bright and loud and guitars and trumpets and dancing from NOWHERE. THIS CAN HAPPEN TO YOU. It's happened to me. D: (I am seriously not kidding when I say they can appear in your own back yard. Screw you, neighbours.)

How do mariachis party though? Do they have parties? Do they celebrate with the mundane? (They act German?) Do they play at their own weddings? Do rival mariachis play and mess everything up? Are all mariachis friends? Do they HAVE time to celebrate and find love?

I don't trust mariachis.

In other news, I like, have E. coli. Where did I get that? I have no idea. I've apparently had it for years, and I've had obvious and rather bad symptoms, but we thought it was something else. I don't have a sissy strand, but I don't have a bad one, or I'd like, be dead.
Possible things that gave it to me:
Cookies?
Steak?
Eric's daddy's mouth? (don't ask why I was there.)
Playing with strange animals?
Any god damned thing?

Regardless, I've learnt that antibiotics make me trip balls. And sleepy.

I have an A in painting. Apparently, I need to bring this A up. (I have 54 out of 55 or so possible points.) We're graded with number grades. How do you do that? Moreso, how do you get a hundred? Why do I deserve a better grade than other people? But really, how do I raise an A?

Also, I've acquired two new plushie bats this weekend. As you know, it is halloween time, and halloween means bats, monsters and kitties. All things I adore in plushie form. Also candy is on sale YAY. For halloween, Eric is gonna be pyramid head. Or a bird. He's not sure yet. Mya~

Even so, the circus will come for you.

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 20:58:53 GMT

It came.

So uhh, this week wasn't too bad. The one before sucked HARD though.

I'm going to block out the sun someday. Just you wait. That bastard's trying to kill me.

My apparent greatest accomplishment is still following me. I guess that's kinda cool.
...It was cutting a hole in a paper. Yeeeeah.... Apparently, it was BEYOND EPIC and no one had ever done anything so epic before or after. No idea.

I'd also like to tell you that Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei and Dissidia are AWESOME. Also, I found a kitty. It shall be ERIK THE THIRD, or Eryk for short. (ERIK THE SECOND is Eric.) Eryk would be adorable and looks like Erik, with yellow eyes, a cute face, and white fluff. DAW.

The rest of this post is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS.

I'm going to take this time to talk to you about ethnic TV. It's kinda like, when you go to the music store, notice they have an 'international' selection, and its all like, hippies playing like... celtic dreams or some crap. For some reason, I always wander over, thinking they might have something, and, no. They never do. They do have like, music in the rest of the world guys, just like here.

Once upon a time, I lived with a bunch of black chicks. They would always watch black entertainment channels. They were all BASICALLY normal TV, but all the characters were black. Uhh. Okay. They also showed ALOT of Cosby. (I still don't like Cosby. He is okay, but I can't stand the show. Especially the openings.) I could never figure out the difference exactly, other than the characters were just... darker. (Okay, I suppose that would be racial TV, but you get the idea.)

But that honestly had nothing to do with anything. All the other ethnicy channels I had were just plain WEIRD. This is moreso based on those.

Sweedish TV- Breasts and snow. Would last forever.
British TV- We call this the BBC. ...Sorta.
Danish TV- This would inevitably become a kid's channel.
German TV- Wouldn't last long due to people calling it the Nazi Channel. Would probably be just plain STRANGE mixed with newscasts.
Italian TV- would turn into the Travel Channel and Food Network.
French TV- No one but people trying to impress their girlfriends and strange college kids would watch this.
Romanian TV- Would initially be a real channel, but just turn into vampire movies.
Japanese TV- This actually used to exist. It was alot of news and scenic shots, with the occasional Japanese lesson. It had a real 'every time is 1am' feeling to it.
Korean TV- Would be INCESSANTLY DRAMATIC.
The other Korean TV- Would probably be a trap. Is always a blank screen but no one has ever looked.
Spanish TV- Would just be soaps, but really just be porn. Very popular with housewives. Possibly has badly timed siestas. not infomercials, but just blankness.
Polish TV- Would be all food, just to spite me.
Indian TV- Would be more news and less Bollywood, and people would get mad.
Russian TV- No one would ever watch this, being afraid it was a spy thing. In reality, its actualy just normal entertaining tv with scenic shots of Russia instead of commercials.
Greek TV- This would devolve from a cultural news station into the history channel.
General 'Arabic' TV- This would just be transguide, and people would only watch it hoping to see explosions which would NEVER happen, mostly because it would be in Dubai or something.
Canadian TV- Being that I live in America, I don't even think it would exist.
White Men's TV- Would be probably just golf and news, but would be MADE OF CONTROVERSY.
Asian TV- This would have NO CHOICE but to be racist. People would be angered, none of which would be asian, cause they've never seen it. Only weeaboos would actually watch it.
Speed TV- White Men's TV and Asian TV.
Dutch TV- This would be a normal news and culture channel, but everyone who wants weed and hemp crap will watch it to SUPPORT THE CAUSE.
Mexican TV- We already have this. It's normal TV in Spanish. In fact, we have alot of this. No its not all George Lopez, fuck you. (Yes, it also includes Catholic Mass.)
Swiss TV- This would be COMPLETELY NEWS. Only financial news. No commercials. The rare outage screen has cows by mountains and has never been seen because it is SO EFFICIENT.

We also compliled a list of Disney deaths. They're not all here cause, seriously guys. We did this off the top of our heads. Is killing the bad guy too much for the purity of the good guy? Philip and Eric beg to differ.

Snow White- witch falls off cliff
Cinderella- ...the cat falls from the tower?
Sleeping Beauty- Phillip slays Maleficent
101 Dalmatians- ...Did she get in a crash?
The Little Mermaid- Eric kills giant Ursula
Beauty and the Beast- Gaston falls off the castle
Aladdin- Jafar becomes trapped in a lamp
The Lion King- Scar falls off the rock after he fights Simba, and the crazy hyenas do him in
The Hunchback of Notre Dame- Frollo falls into the pit of lava, but it was pretty damn awesome.
Hercules- ...Hades lands with the dead people and... dude, he's immortal anyway.
Mulan- Blasts the bag guy into bits. Note the movie WAS about a freakin war.
Pocahontas- The governor is arrested
Tarzan- ....Doesn't he fall and get his neck trapped in vines or something?
The Emperor's New Groove- They leave Yzma as a kitty
The Incredibles- Cape induced accident
Finding Nemo- ...Was there really a bad guy?
Enchanted- She falls. Again.

And then questions. First, Final Fantasy ones.

Can Tifa push Aerith off a cliff in a secret twist in Final Fantasy 7 due to jealousy
You... DO realize that she dies, right?

What gives sephiroth his powers
Lots of those energy bars and power shots.

What is the limit break in Final Fantasy VII
Desperado.

Does Cloud have a weight problem
...Is this related to that zuruzuru line? Now really. But if he stopped doing his hair like he does, he might be ten pounds lighter.

Is reno a womanizer
Only if Rude has a vagina.

How do i get the airship in final fantasy
You have to buy an expansion and download it to your game.

Is zack alive
...Sure, why not.

Up up a-kweh
Kupo!!

Is the Moogle's brain in their PomPom
...Then, what's in their head?

How often do treasure caskets drop
It depends how fast you wear down their HP.

Why did Denzel Swear
Because you touch yourself at night.

Why are people calling sephiroth overated like his such a perfect evil person
Because HE IS. If so many people didn't go OMG BEST BAD GUY EVER, then he wouldn't be overrated.

Why does Tifa have big boobs
Because now that we have 3D, WE'RE MAKING MASSIVE BREASTESES DAMMIT.

How do i make a hentai costume
You may not know this, but if you take off your clothes, there's one underneath.

Why can't we revive Aeris
Because Cloud dropped the body in a pool, and it's probably really gross by now.

Does vincent know Fran
...

Why is my brother gay
Because he touches other men's special places.

Are there gay characters in the series
...You can't convince me there AREN'T.

Who is cloud
...Seriously? Seriously? ...Well, he's the one who dies at the end of disc one. Zack has to go on living without him.

Where did people get the dates for Final Fantasy VII
I met mine at Game World before launch.

I want to see final fantasy spirit within
No you don't. Your mind is lying to you.

Why is Final Fantasy 7 so overrated
Because it was near epic at the time, and too many people played it and NEVER FORGOT and still hold it as ABSOLUTELY EPIC for some reason.

Who is Cloud's love
Kadaj. THE WALLSCROLL DOESN'T LIE, IT CAN'T LIE!!

How long is Sephiroth and his sword
Well, the sword is what... seven feet? I have no idea how long Sephiroth is. Ask Cloud.

Does yuffie fancy vincent in the final fantasy 7 series
...Sadly, I think so. And it terrifies me.

Is there ever going to be a Final Fantasy 6
No. But Kefka and Terra in Dissidia are shoutouts to concept art, and take the place of the missing game.

OTHER QUESTIONS

How does satelite tv work?
Godless black magic. REPENT, YOU HEATHENS TO CABLE.

Can you turn off the sex or the ghosts
No. You are doom to suffer from spectral fucking FOREVER.

Why do bats crash into things even tho they are blind
I'd say you'd answered that question yourself right there. Though I've never seen a bat fly into anything...

Are The Beatles real beetles
Yes. But not George. He's actually a cicada.

what is the difference between the The Original Sailor Moon and the English Version
Cousins.

Why is Ganondorf mean
Because him mommy didn't love him good. :(

How do you get sperm to come out
With needles. Take lots of needles and insert them into your uretha. (Look for a picture.) Do it until it feels good.

Whats a gothic lolita name
Raven Wasabi. Bittersweet Baka. Kaosuko.

Whats ita gothic lolita
It's what happens when you beat the ever living fuck out of a normal goth loli.

How do I jump
Follow the instructions on the Wiifit for how to not jump. Trust me, it works. :(

What is the significance of cacti in Revolutionary Girl Utena
They're penises.

What really, i mean, REALLY happened to Utena Tenjou!
She dies in the end of disc 1 as well if you didn't get enough nobility points.

Does a girl have sperm
Only if she's a whore.

How do I create a machine that has sex with a woman
http://www.mylovemachine.com/prod/build-your-own-fucking-machine.html
These people will tell you.

Oh fuck you.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 19:39:44 GMT

Unlike Yinghua, I am in RAGE. (She's making me post.)

We have a FANTASTIC yoga class. Oh so fantastic. (Uhh... I had to write a paper on talking to the voice in my head for this class. Remember that.)

Today, I went to the doctor. Multiple times. Oh god no more. I've been naked then clothed then naked then clothed... You get the idea.

Pros:
Only a few more required months of medication.
My teeth are fabulous.
YEARS of infection may end soon.
No more piggie flu

Cons:
Lots of unecessary naked.
Insane doses of pills.
Might be developing cancer.
Piggie flu screwed up my stomach

So I got insane massive doses of medicine to KILL those that have decided living within me is fun. (I have to take several times what the average person has to...) And soon after, I started TRIPPING BALLS.

So we went to eat dinner, but it smelt like SILENT HILL so we kinda just sat there. Then we went to class.

Yinghua is kinda gimpy, and I'm an overtightened mass of muscle on WAY too many drugs. She also has no contacts and can't see shit. So she dragged me to yoga class, and we went along with out MISERY.

She goes through each pose for like, a MINUTE. Seriously. And if we lag any, we're lacking in preformance. I do talk in class, but its usually if Yinghua is just like WUT cause the teacher can't do that whole... teaching thing. Yeah. She just kinda assumes pose and is like WHY ARENT YOU DOING IT.

So rewind. Last class. The class I returned from the dreaded PIGGIE FLU. Yinghua was struggling to touch her toes, and I went OMG NOOOO. (I'm here to make sure she doesn't do stupid things.) Noone told me until it was way too late, but, you're like, not supposed to do that. Especially if your back hates you. Every therapist I've ever met agrees on this and reacts do the sight with basically OHSHITOHSHITOHSHITOHSHIT. So yeah.

She saw me speaking, and got all pissy at me. I explained that she and I CAN'T DO THAT. And we went on with our lives.

This week, we went on, with as minimal confusion possible, which is still alot, and I stopped to try and explain alot of stuff to her. We also broke alot of poses early because she ALWAYS GETS TO US LAST. And really. There's only so long you can balance like Superman doing ballet.

So we had to break into groups, assumedly cause she had nothing left to teach. She then walks over to us and (While smiling all LALALA) proceeds to get on our asses about our subpar preformance. (Excuse me, my head touched the floor ALOT.) We used the 'not feeling well' card last week.

No we didn't. I made a comment to Sarah about JESUS CHRIST NO and she made me share with the class. We're just NEVER SUPPOSED TO DO THAT. It makes standing poses REALLY HARD. I can't help that MEDICAL SCIENCE disagrees with you.

So a sentence or two in, she realizes, for some reason, she isn't yelling at me. Instead, she decides to yell at Yinghua for both of us. Apparently she has a bad attitude and makes ZERO effort. (If either of us does, its me.) Yinghua proceeds to basically say 'dude, my back is royally fucked up. It's going into my fucking legs and I kinda CAN'T HELP IT.'

THEN she retorted with 'I've had people with back problems get better thanks to my class.' BASICALLY going 'you're fucked up cause you're not doing well enough.'

After that, she got into a WHY DID YOU TAKE THIS CLASS, and honestly, we went, uhh, we need it to graduate. We cacn't take anything else. She's gimpy and I'm allergic to the fucking SUN. A class where you do your own thing, INSIDE, is kinda a better choice for a required PE class.

THEEEEN, because she kinda did this IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CLASS, DURING CLASS, another girl chimed in all 'I have a herniated disc and it got better!' Yeah, uhh, hers are kinda hereditary and will probably never go away. Thanks for getting into a conversation not involving you and fucking someone else over, you whore.

So we basically had to sit with that whore the rest of the class, and afterwards, she came up to Yinghua all 'Yeah, I hope that didn't make you mad, you need to get you attitude in shape.' Not an I'm sorry or a friendly reminder, just a nice fuck you wth a big smile.

Which then leads other places.

Yinghua does too much for effort and understanding. She takes everything into consideration. She's speent all damn evening for whatever silly reason trying to find meaning in the crap that bitch yelled at her. (She didn't btw.) She's in like, ultimate frustration over it.

I'm in frustration over not doing anything. But then, she stopped yelling at me and just started getting after her, in plural, occasionally refering to me, but she would NOT look at me. Seriously you bitch, if you're gonna yell at me, YELL AT ME. Don't yell at Yinghua.

Like Yinghua said though, its probably REALLY GOOD that she didn't. I NEED to finish this class to graduate, and we have NO IDEA what I would do if she provoked me, while already generally pissy AND drugged to hell AFTER she got mad at her right in front of me.

But what the fuck. You go on talking about how only we can know what to do, and we have to go at our own pace and then bitch us out for it. And if you're going to yell at me, DO IT. Don't tell us how important it is to do what we feel, and you can't even get after me to my face.

But you know what, the voice in my head can kick the voice in your head's nonmaterial ass. And you know what, mine would remember to bring a baseball bat. (It's very good at remembering things. Unlike me.)
Don't you DARE lecture me on how I don't pay attention to the voices in my head. (Seriously, that makes NO FUCKING SENSE.) I also don't approve of this only positive thing, and CLEARLY its not working for her.

Ironically, she banished us from class and made us write a paper. Mine was on THE VOICE IN MY HEAD and hers was on why she took yoga. CLEARLY, she didn't read these. Thus, I better get an A, as its CLEARLY a completion grade. God forbid i'm not EXACTLY like you in body or mind.

what?

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 20:33:28 GMT

"All of you who have yelled at my IM messaging people can go fuck yourselves. I don't even know who you are, but they do, and they're whiny bitches and will tell me if you IM me again all 'oh hai' don't you fucking come back."

--The only actual text in this entry from allegoriest.
AND WE WILL. DON'T DOUBT OUR TATTLING ABILITIES.

Okay. We're really going to post. All of us. ...Most of us. One of us is missing, and is assumedly having sexy time with Leene. We don't know if that's true or not, but we all believe it to be true. And you should too, or we'll all be on different pages, and, that's never good.

Apparently Leene passed out one evening, and woke up to everything turning back on after a power surge, where computers were then found to be dead.

Somewhere around here, we found everyone in a FUCK YOU mood, and only people with blue eyed DARED speak to our beloved allegoriest, presumably because blue eyes make you stupid. Only one of us has dared see Leene in person, and is currently still missing in action. (We assume the sexy time did our missing one in.) ((edit: our missing one has returned during the months it has taken to write this post.))

We've also heard allegoriest is on a death path, crushing all those that come near those horrendously high heels. We're TERRIFIED.

(Late note: We think allegoriest has a computer again but no internet.)

Fun things about this summer:

Allegoriest hasn't killed anybody. This is honestly surprising, but we think it might have something to do with the drugged solitude thing.
James saved kittens. James is an asshole and hates kittens. He gave them to what we imagine is a crazy cat lady.
Siegfried barely went on any dates. He seems to be playing along with solitude. Or he could just be in miserable pain from the weather.
...I don't think the ladies did anything noteable.

Late eventful notes:

allegoriest and siegfried both fell in love. But we think siegfried is lying.
allegoriest really might end up killing a bitch. Maybe it'll be you!
there's an okapi and an elephant outside allegoriest's window. how does that work?
something about puppies.

I also think that for a week or so, allegoriest and this person with blue eyes were actually a couple. Clearly, this didn't last. We think they actually have been for seven years though, but certainly not right now.

Allegoriest is in training to be a ninja. (It's something real, we promise, we just can't tell you. It's probably a lifelong thing.) I estimate hiatus until at least the end of the year. The rest of you guys are probably gonna get told to suck it. Heh.

Also, we're supposed to tell this hisui yui person that allegoriest saw your doppleganger and they were hyper. I'm assuming you aren't hyper. This is a very old message. I'm assuming you won't have to suck it, but really, I couldn't blame you if you wanted to anyway, because we're told our allegoriest is very delicious and we secretly want to as well.

So the rest of you can suck it. Heh.

Btw hisui yui person, if you want refreshments other than virgin blood and toaster streudels, you're gonna have to bring in your own, cause we weren't anticipating other guests, and we kinda already ordered. So sorry.

We've also heard that allegoriest is in loooooove. (for seriously realz this time. it's terrifying.)
I wonder how that works with being asexual.
I think I know who from spying on allegoriest, but i'm not sure since no one has been named. If it is who i think it is, this will be hilarious.

One of us has also always been online as allegoriest, and almost always showing as online. Whoops. Well, a few more months won't hurt.

How is a rabbit like a storage chest?

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 05:44:21 GMT

In a mood so meek and fear-y, in a fortnight bleak and dreary
Many a bunny and book I pick up and more
While I taped up, neatly packing, a long eared one came mapping
Mapping the image of my floor
"Tis my bunny I glomped and smothered, who should be napping on my floor
Tis my bunny, mi amore."

Oh how gleefully high and shrill, my cries of giddiness in april
And just as any bunny will, to my breasteses he drew close
Eagerly I began the huggling and into me he began snugging
While at my shirt a-tugging my precious little bunny Kratos
A dearest tiny purple angel, my precious little bunny Kratos
In his little bunny clothes

And he jumped from my lap, dragging each long purple ear
Illing, milling about the work set out upon my floor
So that now, to see the things set out, he bequeathed me
"These things are beneath me, laid out on your floor
But you take them to replace me, as you go out the door
What a strange peculiar chore."

As my current box grew full, filled with plushies soft as wool
"In which of these boxes, inside shall me you store
Even though I am too great, And directly shall I state
That yet as of this date, I absolutely here abhor
And in these boxes you shall not have mine own self stored.
In that box, I'll be ignored."

Deep into his eyes I peered, the purple one I always feared
I halted, while packing things no one ever dared to pack before
But this rabbit was outspoken and many things would end broken
The box I then had taped so nothing will have escaped
But his fears had soon reshaped that in this way, "I will implore
For at least two weeks and perhaps even more
in a box I won't be stored."

I return to my work toiling as my bunny's fluff is boiling
I heard a squeaky voice much louder than before
Surely I thought, he cannot be oh so serious
His thinking is so mysterious while he sits there on my floor
He twitches his nose and he speaks once more
"Surely in that box, I won't be stored"

And with that I lifted him high and gently sat him upon my thigh
He wiggled his nose, and right there he then swore
That not now ever will he or he'd might surely hurt me
And that bunnies need keep free, into my very soul he bore
Someday someday he would certainly settle the score
If inside that box he would be stored

After a moment that silence waited I then quietly silently stated
To my precious bunny that I so greatly adore
To the box he would not succumb for with me he would not come
Seeing what he had become, as if his very soul I tore
He leapt from my lap and let out a great roar
Screeched my bunny, "NEVERMORE!!"

With these words I became silent, I fear for his moods most violent
Even though he will not have that which he so greatly feared for
With these thoughts he was immersed, certainly nothing could now be worse
Than these things my bunny cursed even though he won't be stored
Jumped onto each of his legs, all four
Trembling and thrashing the very lion shirt he wore
Again he screamed, "NEVERMORE!!"

And then my little bunny gave at me a gaze so funny
As I lifted him up and placed him in my sock drawer
All the while did he fume as he was stricken ill with gloom
Considering what kind of doom would befall the things that I search for
As I silently continued my packing chore
Muttered my bunny, "nevermore."

"You really do not want to go, for you cannot ever really know
The countless horrors, which for me are in store
People are so very rude with manners oh so very crude
And certainly not with their food and a certain eskimo whore
This is what great suffering awaits me out that door"
Again said my bunny, "nevermore."

"And as you're there all the while, they stare at you through a fake smile
And decidedly then, it shall be you that they ignore
There under the pretense of learning, as you sit in your chair turning
Deep inside you is yearning, yearning for something so much more
The need for learning that you can never ignore"
Pouting, my bunny, "nevermore."

"And then when they awake from sleeping, out of be they come a-creeping
Becoming ready to do that which I most greatly abhor
Several times a day repeating, that time my body gets a beating
When must begin our eating, eating that rotten filth of lore
Such vile cafeteria food is what I have in store"
Squeaked my bunbun, "nevermore."

He turned his face to me, his fear inside him could I see
Nothing could compare to this, horror or gore
"Then why will you take the kitten, is with him that you're so smitten
It is your heart that he has bitten that you now so adore
You still take him even with all these terrors galore
So I must then say nevermore."

I lifted him out from my socks, carried him over the half filled box
And sat him down next to me on my carpeted floor
"Please do not become hysteric, his tastes are really quite generic
And one who doesn't eat much is Eric, content to hide among our decor
And this I really truly must now upon you implore
Worry about that nevermore."

"But I really want to go with you, when you're not here what will I do
Cried my bunny as he flailed and pouted sleepily on my floor"
"You don't need to cry or weep. for here they must surely keep
A darling bunny fluffy as sheep in their hearts whom they adore
Right down into the little bunnie shoes that he wore
They'd forget about you nevermore."

I then soon halted my preparation and gave into my bunny's desperation
And went to get clothes for sleep out from inside my drawer
"It's finally time for bed," to my bunny I gently said
As grew heavy his long eared head, drifting to sleep upon my floor
Do not fall asleep so angry as you often have before
You'll be in a box nevermore

I then lifted him up to my chest where sleepily onto me he pressed
No longer needing to cry and pout anymore
And then into my sheets so white my bunny I did hold to me tight
As I prepared to sleep that night as he let out a soft bunny snore
I turned off my light and curled with my bunny whom I so adore
Worry about it nevermore~

oh lookie

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 09:07:56 GMT

Hmm. We've been supposed to be updating for allegoriest, but we have been very bad. We've tried to get several people to update, even Eric, but he won't listen to his father. (its because he has blue eyes. disgusting. I don't listen to him either.)

Instead we all did surveys as allegoriest.
they're really accurate.
we like to think they are at least.

We also did the love calculator, with names we think allegoriest might choose

and an utena quiz.

YOUR PETS WAIT FOR YOUR RETURN, WHEN YOU WILL BANISH ALL BUT US.

Dream Boyfriend

Section 1

Hair color? black~
Eye color? blue~
Height? really tall~
Six pack? uhh, maybe, just a little.
Long hair or short? medium~
Glasses? sometimes~
Piercings? maybe a few~
Eyebrows? eyebrow like?
Big butt or little? ...what?
Chest hair? NO
Buff or skinny? skinny~
Teeth? teethlike~
Section 2

Funny or serious? maybe both~
Party-hopper or more stay-at-home? stay at home~
Should he be able to bake or cook? not really
Does he have a best friend? Probably~
Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends? Hmm, not sure~
Out-going or shy? a little of both~
Sarcastic or sincere? sincere~
Does he love his mother? no~
Should he watch chick-flicks? NO
Would he be a smoker? yes~
How about a drinking? no~
And swearing? sometimes~
Would he play with your hair? sometimes~
Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time? no.
Would he pay for you when you're on a date? yes~
Does he kiss on the first date? yes~
Where would you go for dinner? hmm, somewhere quiet~
Would he buy you flowers? yes~
Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies? no, there are bugs. D:
Would he write poetry about you? no
Would he use endearments? no
Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends? not really
How about you hanging out with him and HIS friends? sometimes~
Would he walk you up to the door at the end of the evening? n/a
Would you hold hands? sometimes~
Section 3

Does he play soccer? no
Baseball? no
Football? no
Basketball? no
Water polo? no
Golf or something equally boring? fencing is boring~
Does he surf? no
Skateboard? no
Snowboard? no
Can he sing? no
Play the guitar? no
Play piano? no
Play the drums? no
Can he keep his room clean? yes
Is he an artist of sorts? no
Does he write his own music? no
Does he have pets? Lucia~
Section 4

Does he use the word dude? no~
How about tight? no
Would he watch the sun rise and set with you? no, I don't like the sun~
What kind of car does he drive? he has a black convertible he never drives because my brother has it~
How old is he? late twenties~
What's his name? HEY, YOU LEAVE ME OUT OF THIS.

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? uhh, a little of both~
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? usually
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? out
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? no, I'm too short. D:
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? no
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? no
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? ...a bear. D:
8. Do you have freckles? no
9. Do you always smile for pictures? no
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? you. D:
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? no
12. Have you ever peed in the woods? ...no.
13. What about pooped in the woods? ......no.
14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? no
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? no
16. How many people have you slept with this week? ...
17. What size is your bed? full~
18. What is your Song of the week? something by seazer probably~
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? maybe
20. Do you still watch cartoons? yes. D:
21. Whats your least favorite movie? Maybe The Village.
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? In my closet.
23. What do you drink with dinner? ...What am I eating?
24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? sauce?
25. What is your favorite food? GRILLED CHEESE.
26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Adolescence Apocalypse~
27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? I hope James~
28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? sadly
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? don't think so
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?no idea~
31. Can you change the oil on a car? probably
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? no
33. Ran out of gas? no
34. Favorite kind of sandwich? GRILLED CHEESE.
35 Best thing to eat for breakfast? I don't believe in breakfast. D:
36. What is your usual bedtime? n/a
37. Are you lazy? yes. D:
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? I was alot of things...
39. What is your Chinese astrological sign? KITTIES.
40. How many languages can you speak? none completely. D:
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? no
42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs? maybe legos. But lincoln logs are all the same color...
43. Are you stubborn? yes. >O
44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? LETTERMAN SUCKS.
45. Ever watch soap operas? no
46. Afraid of heights? not really
47. Sing in the car? no
48. Dance in the shower? no
49. Dance in the car? no
50. Ever used a gun? I think
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? a few months ago maybe. D:
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Rock Operas aren't. D:
53. Is Christmas stressful? yes
54. Ever eat a pierogi? yes
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? berries~
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? n/a
57. Do you believe in ghosts? WAH
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? I think D:
59. Take a vitamin daily? yes. D: lots
60. Wear slippers? no
61. Wear a bath robe? yes
62. What do you wear to bed? NOTHING HAAHA
63. First concert? not sure
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target
65. Nike or Adidas? ...nike?
66.Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos?
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? eww
68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? no
69. Ever take dance lessons? no
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? being himself
71. Can you curl your tongue? yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee? no
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? no
74. Own any record albums? yes
75. Own a record player? yes
76. Regularly burn incense? yes
77. Ever been in love? no
78. Who would you like to see in concert? seazer~
79. What was the last concert you saw? no idea
80.Hot tea or cold tea? ICED TEA IS A FABRICATION OF THE DEVIL
81.Tea or coffee? tea
82. Sugar or snickerdoodles? ...I'm not sure...
83.Can you swim well? I don't like to.
84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? I think
85. Are you patient? a little
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? n/a
87.Ever won a contest? yes, art ones
88. Ever have plastic surgery? no
89. Which are better black or green olives? both~
90.Can you knit or crochet? no, I do'nt have hands good enough to. ;__;
91. Best room for a fireplace? living room?
92. Do you want to get married? no
93. If married, how long have you been married? n/a
94. Who was your HS crush? WE DO NOT SPEAK OF THIS.
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? no
96. Do you have kids? Eric~
97. Do you want kids? Only Eric. D:
98. Whats your favorite color? white~
99. Do you miss anyone right now? Seth and James~
100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX? huh?

Leene loves Jae

63 %

Dr. Love thinks that a relationship between Leene and Jae has a reasonable chance of working out, but on the other hand, it might not. Your relationship may suffer good and bad times. If things might not be working out as you would like them to, do not hesitate to talk about it with the person involved. Spend time together, talk with each other.

Lucia Bunny loves Eric Kitty

23 %

Dr. Love thinks a relationship might work out between Lucia Bunny and Eric Kitty, but the chance is very small. A successful relationship is possible, but you both have to work on it. Do not sit back and think that it will all work out fine, because it might not be working out the way you wanted it to. Spend as much time with each other as possible. Again, the chance of this relationship working out is very small, so even when you do work hard on it, it still might not work out.

Siegfried Wagner loves a whore

85 %

Dr. Love thinks that a relationship between Siegfried Wagner and a whore has a very good chance of being successful, but this doesn't mean that you don't have to work on the relationship. Remember that every relationship needs spending time together, talking with each other etc.

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? Pfft, already lived in those places.
If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? Why would I wanna trade with a dead guy?
If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to becopme more attractive, would you do it? So... I'd be at -10 years?
Whom do you admire and why? The phantom of the opera for being a PRETTY BAD DUDE.
What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? That geramn kitty book
You're walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? slap her bitch ass for leaving her baby in a burning building.
If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? no
What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? uhh, not dying?
What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? almost dying?
As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? ...is the mafia looking?
If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? Wait, AIDS is transferred through the air now? Oh shit.
In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you'd receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? uhh.
How old were you when you lost your virginity? Hey, I'm a god damned paladin, bitch.
Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? I AM a vampire.
If you could live forever, would you want to? no. ;__;
Which fivtional movie character most resembles who you are? The police dude from Yong Frankenstein. Or the phantom of the opera if he were less ugly.
If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? The one where i won't die.
If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? I don't HAVE a tv
If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? no
If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? yes
Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? I'm not big on this living orever thing.

1. What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel? looking into the eyes is the hard part.
2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry? I'm always angry
3. You will die in three minutes. Last call? I think I can fit a few in.
4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be? KITTIES!
5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love. trust~
6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time youre fired. Do you save the dog? puppies. D:
7. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone? possibly
8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it? i don't think any of them would like that
9. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? maybe
10. Does sex=love? no
11. Are you old fashioned? yes
12. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex? I don't want to get married at all, but yes i think
13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back? love them
14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? sleepies
15. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? have i done that?
16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change? slapping a bitch
17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you? the juggernaut bitch. and we're having a sleepover. we're bffs
18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? probably
19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be? this is completely stupid
20. When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel? no idea
If You had three months to live:

21. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die? maybe
22. What do you do with your remaining days? ...sleep.
23. Would you be afraid? I'd be asleep.

Would You Believe This?

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If I looked on the bed next to you, what would I find?
Eric

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
Depends on the bathroom. Is it haunted?

Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in?
Tossed in as haphazardly as possible.

Sleep on your back or stomach?
BOTH

Are you a cuddler?
If it's with plushies, yes.

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
Utter horror. And paints.

Something that happened today that made you angry?
People being stupid. That's just a general thing.

What were you doing before this survey?
Looking at Memorial Photographs.

What will you do after the survey?
Look at pictures of adorable kitties.

Marriage or living together?
With the survey? Neither.

What shirt are you wearing now?
CINCO DE MAYO

Do you sing?
During Paul Week

Do you de-label your beer bottles?
I toss everything I find in front of the fire escape.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
I think yelling them in public is always cathartic.

Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
Reading that mouth yeast infection article.

First thing you do when you wake up?
Check the time.

Ever had surgery?
Don't bring that up D:

Last argument you got into with?
That was a poorly constructed question, so I'm not obligated to answer it.

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
Well it's so flimsy...

What's one good thing about your best friend?
He doesn't speak and he's travel size. Need I mention fluffy (no, it's not Eric)

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
I sort of randomly pass out. Sometimes even when someone is speaking to me.

Current song on myspace?
Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
I don't own an alarm clock. I ignore them in the first place.

If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you?
No.

What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?
World of Warcraft

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
Graduating

It's midnight. Who are you texting?
I can't text. That's pretty presumptuous.

It's Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
Saving the world.

Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
NOT ADRIEN BRODY - what with chihuahuas and his inexplicable muscles

Your Christmas list consists of?
I have no idea. It's too early for Christmas.

You're going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
The McDonald's in Time's Square. It's supposed to be fancy.

You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
Yinghua. She has too many and I don't wear them often.

How do you feel about your hair?
I need a haircut.

What movie is in your DVD player?
The Hunchback of Notre Dame is in Yinghua's tricky DVD player

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
Sunny England? Maybe just somewhere with less sun.

How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
Beautiful skinny sissy men~

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I hid in my room.

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
like as in BFFs?

What would you change about your life right now?
It'd be nice to not be in horrible pain.

What’s the best feeling in the world?
Getting food from somewhere that isn't Incarnate Word.

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I'm driven to tears.

I'm dangerously near the point of too much drama.

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 09:55:45 GMT

Oh look, I stole a computer. By which, I mean borrowed. (Please don't hurt me FBI, I'm giving it back as soon as I finish typing. Also, if you come over, the guest bathroom sounds demonic. I warned you!!)

I'm going deaf! Ironically, high and low tones are just fine, its the middle that is mesed up, once again proving that violists are indeed tonedeaf.

Unfortunately, I can't afford to not go deaf. Dammit.
Or to see what the hell is with my vertigo problem.

I also need an MRI (I BRAMAGED MY DRAIN, FUCK.)
I apparently also have the like, higest ratio of nightmares to other dreams quota. (It's at like, 100%. Seriously.)
...That's jst a fun extra on top of all the symptoms of brain damage YAY. (I guess I DID have a concussion.)
Actually, this would also count as an ear test, since I'm too old to be screwing around in my head anymore.

I'm still babysitting my family. (Dear god they can NOT be trusted alone.) They can make drama out of anything. ANYTHING. Seriously, today, one of them threw away a used foam cup AND ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE.

My house is also haunted and/or a bitch. STOP BREAKING THINGS AND SETTING ALARMS OFF FOR NO REASON. We all swear we keep seeing things.

I'm also a chibi nurse now! Hooray!
(No.)
My grandfather is sick as hell, on top of blind and near deaf, and also has decided he no longer speaks das englisch. (ich spreche deutsch nicht gut. D: )
Unfotunately, German is his first language and he's reverting to it, and can't even remember to eat and all kinds of stuff. We have nurses, and they like eachother, (They're black, enjoy Africa, and he spent alot of time there when he was younger. THEY DONT FIGHT, A MIRACLE.) except, they have to leave in a week or two, because they only had time recently since their main patient needed surgery.

It's basically like I have a child now, minus the happiness of every being NEAR a significant other, the rewarding part, the learning nurturing and the cuteness thing.

(I'm never having kids.)
(Don't worry, I dont think I can have kids. I'm so diseased.)

He also has other children. We call them, asking for tiny tiny bits of help, even what should we do things, and no answer. Cause, partying is more important. (Yes, they're partying, while we're in mental breakdown land.)

And of course, my cousin was murdered. (It made like, above the fold news.) Innocent people were also taken with her for no good reason, and the guy who did it is in the hospital apparently near dead. She has a young son, and my family is obviously devastated. (The official crime people, whoever they are, said it was probably the worst they'd ever seen.) In theory anyway, she's happy now though.

Unfortunately, my dad's entire family is very poor. While not directly related, we also probably have to provide a funeral, on top of care for my grandfather, school, doctor bills and my father is still in an INSANELY long interview process. Which, is probably impossible. But, we can't just let that one go. (I mean, the last funeral the had, they had LOST the body and we had to wait for hours until the priest had time to show up. We don't want that again, especially right now.)

But they need us right now. There are other people who could help with the other problems, but don't, its too hard.

And everyone needs me. I'm the one that thinks everything out, and doesn't cry and let things get in the way. But, there isn't enough of me to go around. Trying to keep things peaceful without outside things happening is hard enough. Managing to do it while chronically ill is nearly impossible. Of course, I have no choice, and it will end well anyway, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm le miserable.

Currently, I have a handful of untreated infections attempting on my life. (Actually, I am PERPETUALLY infected in one way or another.) I obviously can't see a doctor right now, and its painful as FUCK. I also can't take ANY painkillers, because I'm on a different, horrendously expensive medication that makes me explode with them. My parents don't know I'm on medicine since they would freak out, and the pharmacy is a very expensive place. (I hope HEB is cheapest, since I can't ninja to Walgreens or anywhere.)

I'd seriously probably be having a mental breakdown if I wasn't SO indifferent.

For fun, I've been sewing. So much sewing. (Sew much soing?)

The curtains. Dear christ the curtains.
Fixing clothes. Haven't shopped in years.
Plushie friends. Examples inlcude a plushie of Eric's daddy for him to cuddle, and Vogel, my in progress baby. He's part brass!

I've also done lots of community service, which I only enjoy because I get to see my redheaded princess.

I'm also making a whole kitchen, and trying to furnish my soon to be kitchen of myself. (I was considering making my frying pan of mud to save money, but there's no water for my dirt. YOU JUST NEED TO LEARN TO COOPERATE, WORLD.)

Cherish this post, internet, for I will be the biggest asshole when I return.

Also, don't bother commenting cause, seriously, I'm not gonna check it. And, seriously, I probably don't care.

wtf dreams D:

Sun, 17 May 2009 09:29:37 GMT

Seth is so glitched. D:

He broke the eight per house thing, and for some reason, was born a vampire. (Neither of his parents have ever been a vampire.) The game won't let me cure him no matter how I try, but he sizzles during the day. He also loses stats at night like a normal person. :\

So, I decided to put him in the coffin, cause, how else would I tell? Cause the flames and all only happen for vampires.

AND THEY DID.
But he like, sits in the air across the room and gets in. O_o

Then he lays there with it open...
When he gets out, he does this weird freeze frame dance thing...

And SOMETIMES he lurks. But almost never.

Doreen lives in a cave of curtains.

Evil sim Yinghua had a baby too.

Ashley! He's so cute.

SHE'S MADE OF DEMONS.
....That actually explains alot.

Sim James, like real James, is mind blown by books.

THIS IS NOT A PERSON ON THIS BUS. DD:

I never figured out WHAT he did, but everyone loves Siegfried for some reason.

Everyone wanted C-ko to b a human again, so I changed him back. Notice, that VAMPIRES HATE SPARKLIES SO MUCH IT UNVAMPIRES THEM.

Mamiya is on a quest to make every NPC gay. ...Too bad Touga isn't an NPC. (He kills those that don't turn, or that are mean to him.)

Devil Leene doesnt enjoy your ass grabbing, Mamiya. D:

...She DOES however enjoy your getting it on in the dressing room.
(Touga came out dressed as Edgeworth btw.)

Yay Mamiya!!

So I made a random test family, cause I want to move my family into a bigger house. (My main family has WAY too many people in it.) instead of waiting for them to make babies, I called the adoption service. The social worker came, dropped off the baby and THEN proceeded to molest the new dad.

Wtf.

Apparently she's so evil and child stealing because she's lonely. Or something.

Then, they went ON A DATE, and when they went up to his room, she tried to hug him AND FROZE.
She was like that until the date ended. Then she un froze, went 'I had fun!' andwalked to the sidewalk, where she just STOPPED.

...And then, I bought and expansion pack. D:

And I had to remke everyone cause they're not REALLY adults!! *cries*
and once again, they think SIEGFRIED.

We live in a dorm, where foating llamas in the ceiling shit on us, and we have to pay everyone's damned bills.

JennyCakes was the first sim to discover PILLOWFIGHTING. Leene-sim quickly became queen of pillowfighting, and its how she says hello.

I think this one looks more like James. LOOK, HE'S BEING ADORABLE.

Siegfried likes being naked. D:
Also, a cow is in love with him. I have no idea why.

This Yinghua studies and is musical. Hopefully this one is closer to actually being Yinghua and not EVIL.

Leene and James always wave, no matter HOW close they are, and what they were just doing.

And then they got treadmills. James got on, and just started sprinting. Then Siegfried got on all wobbly and slow. Then Yinghua got on, and promptly fell on her face, Siegfried followed. Then both eventually slid off face first, while James gracefully jumped. ...I dunno what's up with the frillies, I think that's a glitch...

And THEN they got a bubble hookah. it makes them literally high. D: They love it very much.

...This is how I imagine James actually WOULD be in college/highschool/whateverenglishpeoplehave.

...I lost my muscle relaxers. They're what give me sleepies. Unfortunately, now I wake up every five minutes and have INSANE dreams.

I've created a place creepier than silent hill, and I sleep there.

They have a zoo! It's terrifying! I danced with an alligator there, after I gave it a bath.

Then I had to move, while I was in a play, while a friend gave me mud and a bug as props to help. Then Jae, who was AKIO, wanted to foil MIKAGE'S plans by winning his beauty contest. So we had to buy cake in case we lost, cause it was christmas. But then, all the cakes had LUNCHMEAT. So we got weird wine. And then, I kept ending up at MALL HELL.

Then, Yinghua and I needed to get back to our apartment before the pizza man, but we were in dream downtown, across from the invisible alamo. So we started walking back, and we were in the middle of fucking nowhere, but we followed the racetracks and the dead rotting swordfish.

But then, we went to the dream KFC instead, which was inside a sandwhich place. We waited for fucking ever-

Wait, that was AFTER the freaky underwater adventure. We went though machinerey like gross things, and ended up at some futuristic underwater house or something. And Tim Allen was there with his TV wife, and there were freaky bugs and people kept trying to lure me into the bugs, And then we found the body, and I swam out to get a look above the water, past all the horrible ocean obstacales, and was in the arctic or something.

THEN we went to KFC, where they said they had biscuits AND gravy, AND they could combine them. (I should have known better, since KFC has VILE Gravy.) They made them HORRIBLE and wanted to charge me $70. And they only had church's chicken. No thanks. Then we did something BAD, and had to run away in our plastic cars cause they called the cops. But then, the plastic car was too slow, so we took Akio, but he was invisible. Then we ended up at the EVIL FAIR, which was suspiciously like the EVIL MALL. Siegfried and his plastic convertible were there too. We saw a cheap plushie shop, and found $50. Then we ended up at EVIL DOWNTOWN.

...I have no idea if we ever got our pizza.

Then, we were back at the hotel like place near the EVIL DOWNTOWN, and judy was there with a cart of file folders, screaming how I designed the place without BUBBLE DIAGRAMS and it was of UTMOST IMPORTANCE I did bubbles for her, even though it was already complete and built.

After that, we saw the world's oldest ostrich, in a pit next to skunks and HELL. Then something about Ziggy Stardust.

...that was basically my week.

I know there's a bela lugosi's dead meme, but I forgotted it.

Wed, 13 May 2009 22:55:27 GMT

JAMES DOES NOT ENJOY THIS JELLO CRAP.
(Actually, i think he just hates Yinghua.)

Hadn't played sims for a few weeks.

I made a new family of glitch. HOW CUTE.
My sim is apaprently quite smitten with Mr. Pricius, the Death one.

...I THINK this one is the mother. I forget ALL the time. D:
The hell she talking about with that kid. DDDD:

...And now she's a baby. D:
An invisibaby with a wedding ring.

POOR AGATHO. He was in that crib a second before as a toddler. D:
It also took me FOREVER to figure out WHY he had shades and facial hair, until I remembered I made all these sims out of my seazer sim, so they actually ALL look like that underneath.
Why he has them to wear to be, I will never know.

...I dunno WHAT'S with that.

My shoulder angel/devil family~
Roger is the asexual vampire on the right. (Well, he's a vampire NOW anyway.He's also BFFs with Siegfried.)

My shoulder angel and devil actually like eachother alot.

...Way too much, in fact. DDD:

I'M SO SORRY.

The Cakes family all hate eachother.

Oh, how nerdy JennyCakes is.

HE'S SO HAPPY.

Edgey doesn't know if he wants to be a businessman or a criminal, but he knows he wants money. CLEARLY, HE IS DESTINED TO BE A LAWYER.

For some reason, Jenny Cakes is a lesbian, Edgey Cakes likes men, Touga Cakes likes both, and Seazer Cakes is asexual. (YESSSSS) I don't know how this happened.

Jaelyn and Touga are also secretly in love, and I also see this family EVERYWHERE in game.

Yinghua sim is trying to do everyone in game.

EVERYONE.

Somewhere along the way, she decided that humans weren't good enough anymore, and decided to move onto vampires. So, she met this COUNT TROY person. COUNT TROY was a HORRIBLE date.

The FIRST THING he did was bite her.

Soon that evening, they decided to get married. WHYYY

And they lurked.

Yinghua invited COUNT TROY over, and the FIRST thing he did was bite Vlad. It was then that I learnt vampirism is like SIMS AIDS.

Vlad then went crazy, and my entire family was INFURIATED at COUNT TROY and Yinghua, and Frederic cried. :(

I wanted to turn Yinghua back, btu she wouldn't, and so, I deicded the obvious thing to do was to turn COUNT TROY into a human. For some reason, after he changed, he STILL acted like a vampire. Also, he was black, which we weren't expecting. Mostly since he has like, red hair and all. Just in case no one informed you COUNT TROY, Bela Lugosi's dead.

I tried to make COUNT TROY catch Yinghua cheating, cause, seriously, she's like, with EVERY sim. So, I had her and Siegfried making out in front of the only exit at my house. He walked RIGHT by and didn't notice. James, the SIM OF FIDELITY, however noticed, and was not pleased.

So, I deicded to invite COUNT TROY over the next night, and I took him over so I could put him in place to watch Yinghua cheat on him. Without me even intervening, Yinghua grabbed Vlad's ass, which INFURIATED COUNT TROY.
...It's also a good thing I took control of him, cause he was ABOUT to bite Siegfried, and that's not cool, COUNT TROY.

For some reason, Yinghua and COUNT TROY STILL didn't hate eachother, so I decided to kill COUNT TROY.

While some people prefer to build a doorless room around their sim, I prefer to build a pool. he has a cactus!

The next morning, he died, while Frederic was yelling at him. His remains are still there, and I sent his grave to a nightclub downtown. (No mourning was to be had. Vlad just kicked his grave and sent him away. Though, I think Yinghua was pregnant with Vlad's child at this point...)

Aileene had another baby~ DAW. His name is Seth.

Seth broke the game. Somehow, he managed to be the ninth sim in our house. But then, Seth was an infant for WEEKS. And he WOULD NOT get older. I tried everything.

Then, we noticed he was a vampire. He crawled outside, and suddenly I was all WTF SETH'S AT RED. But he LOOKS normal, and the game won't acknowledge that he's a vampire, so I can't turn him back.

SOMEHOW I managed to get him to be a toddler. For some reason, after a sim does SOMETHING with a toddler in the bathroom, they go to the corner. I have no idea why.

After Seth learnt to walk and talk, we made him a child. Now he has homework! Poor poor Seth.

He and Frederic got like, FROZEN like this. They didn't move for the longest time.

Then Jaelyn had a baby. (YOU CHEATING WHORE.)
It's also Vlad's baby. (She and Yinghua were both pregnant at the same time, yes.)

Aiden hates his parents. Poor Aiden. Aileene is the only one that pays attention to him. :(

Siegfried is a detective. He has a blindfold, cause I couldn't find any decent shades for him. Poor Siegfried.

None of my sims are anything like their people counterparts. (Well, except James. He's JUST like James actually.)

Yinghua sim is EVIL. She's a skankface, and is tearing apart my digifamily. She also never talked to my sim. :(
Jaelyn is a poopieface and a PRO ATHLETE. (All of the people she brings home are black. Wtf.)
Vlad is a skankface too, assumedly because he's the other Yinghua, and she was one.
Siegfried's sim is like, a sim virgin. While he actually IS a slut, his sim isn't.

And EVERYONE loves Doreene. The eternal toddler. I will do everything in my power to not ever age her. She's SO CUTE.

Frederic is so very overworked. Poor Frederic. He isn't aging until he get's a damned A+.
Seth is zooming through life. He needs that A+ too.
Aiden is unloved. Only Aileene loves him because I force her to. He will be a child soon.

Sim James is suspiciouly just like real James. His job is being James. He does nothing, but everything. He loves his kids and only his kids.

He's also inexplicably ripped, like real James. We have NO IDEA why either of them actually have muscles for being SO LAZY.

UNLIKE real James, he wants TEN kids for some reason.

As I turned the game off to sleepies last night, I heard THE BABY NOISE. And it was Aileene and James. STOP THAT. You don't need more kids. You have an ETERNAL TODDLER. Why do you need to do this? D:

Also, I keep finding my sims in ETERNAL CUDDLING. Seriously, I've found them sitting there for DAYS.

And it looks like a bad portrait when they do it.

Now to figure out how to turn Seth into a human. D:

Music Post- J.A. Seazer.

Tue, 05 May 2009 10:00:06 GMT

Today a falcon tried to eat me. D:
I saved your ass, evil squirrel.
I think you should be good from now on, evil squirrel.
It flew into my hand and HAH, IT WAS ALREADY BANDAGED.
It flew into a tree, trying to look all like it didn't happen.
Still not as epic as when a Blue Angel almost ran over me.

In accordance with many a NIN fan that are after my life, I'm required to inform you that I believe (KNOW) that J.A. Seazer is better than Trent Reznor. I STAND BY THIS. Look, I even listen to a NIN song as I post, because I am a good sport. Daw. It's live. The audience be singing. How cute.

General Seazer info, in such a sad, sad medium. Don't ask why I put it there.

J.A. Seazer Sampler Mix

I tried to choose a wide variety, and ones that felt best. (Which is REALLY hard.)

I started with a good classic song, then moved to things a great number of Seazer fans are apparently comfortable with, and worked down from there.

You know the whole evaluation thing, but really, I have no idea where you would get these while supporting the original artists.

01. Echigo Tsutsuishi Oyashirazu - Song of the Pilgrimage to the Nation's Border (1973)
A standard early Seazer staple. I've seen it on several compilations of Japanese rock, there's a couple versions, and its the start to his recital CD.

02. The National Compatriot's Palace Perspective Guidebook - Internal Clock Municipal Orrery (1998)
One of the original Utena songs, written for the show. I felt this one stood out well.

03. Prophecy of W - Angelic Creation, Namely, Light (1998)
One of the remixes of a remix from Utena's Banyu Inryoku album. I wanted a Banyu Inryoku version of an early song from the show, but all my copies of the originals are either easy to find, or have someone talking through part of them.

04. The Oceanic Moon Dies in Indigo - Revival Record of the Rose Egg Sophia- Middle Ages Revive! - Utinam Reviviscat Medium Aevum! (1999)
Another song almost took this place once, but this one embodies so many styles, but still flows rather well.

05. Freedom - Throw Away the Books, Go Into the Streets (1971)
One of my favourite songs. A movie soundtrack song, from where the team is playing soccer. It falls apart perfectly.

06. Human Dog - Ship of Fools (1977)
A wonderful, and wild rock song.

07. The Inflatable Woman's Song - To Die in the Countryside (1974)
The song from the inflatable woman's 'death' in the movie. Melodramatic and very circusy.

08. Bird of Benevolence - Shintokumaru (1978)
Very traditional sounding in the opening, but around three and a half minutes in, falls into madness.

09. August 1970 - Throw Away the Books, Go Into the Streets (1971)
A common theme in Terayama plays, this one with singing.

10. Lightbulb-Style Ammonite, Part 11 - Lightbulb-Style Ammonite (1994)
An insturmental piece. Very strange.

11. Daguerreotype - Ending - Farewell to the Ark (1984)
The mysterious and haunting ending from the photoshoot at the end of the film.

12. Oncoar! - Sealbreaking (1980)
An encore from an unofficial recording. (Yes, its spelt like that on the case.)

Extra Tracks
1. Rose Naked Body- Shura Corporal Constellation αψζ Nebula - Adolescence Rush
From the Utena movie. Instead of synth the songs usually have, this one is all orchestrated.

2. Tied the Ribbon - Tenjo Sajiki Musical Work Collection 5: Hunting for Children
From the recently released box set.

WHAAAARGARBL

Fri, 01 May 2009 19:50:00 GMT

TV: The first thing you need to make chile rellenos is-
Me: MEXICANS.
Yinghua: That's racist!
Me: No it isn't, I don't think I've ever eaten anything cooked by anybody BUT mexicans. Even Chinese.
Yinghua: OMG, you're right
Me: Everything I've had by white people has sucked. Like goulash.

-Us, on Bobby Flay's TV show he always loses in.

All white people can make is dessert. Really. D:

Augh. I've been sick to the point that Judy wants to hold me back a semester. She wouldn't though if I was graduating, just only cause she wants to make sure I got it all. Still, I don't want to. I need to cram my ass off to make sure I get everything in so she'll let me go. Hrm.

And MOVING. OH GOD I DO NOT WANT TO MOVE.
I mean, I do, but I do NOT want to pack. D:

While I'm very sick at the moment, I don't think I have piggie flu. (YAY.)

Current medication business:

I MISS YOU PAINKILLERS. OH GOD HOW I MISS YOU.
While anti depressants do make me feel slightly better, I still feel far from great. I'm just as slow and MREH as usual. I'm getting alot better at obsessing though. ...Still procrastinating, yes.
Getting more used to muscle medication. Not NEARLY as sleepy anymore. (That week of nothing but sleep SUCKED.) Of course, if I need to work, I can't take it. Also, I've noticed if I don't take them, I wake up in ouchies, and also have weird dreams.
Stomach business HATES ME. Of course, I have been unnaturally cruel to it, but I blame the cafeteria and my lack of money. Also, I think those pills give me a weird taste in my mouth.
I keep forgetting my headache ones and THAT ENDS BADLY. AUGH.
Still cant go in the sun. Nice try though. :(
Still infected. Waiting for this to go away.

Yinghua is DEATHLY afraid of the piggie flu. It doesn't help that its being SHOVED down our throats, and that there was that whole ambulance and people carted away via stretcher thing across the street.
Really, I still don't see what's so bad about it. I mean, it sounds just like the flu. I still don't want it though, cause, dude, flu.
Pro of getting piggie flu: Can say I had the flu three damned times in one year, and to shut it.
Con of getting the piggie flu: Dude, you'd get the fucking piggie flu. D:

I hate school food. I've basically been living off grilled cheese sandwhiches and diet coke. (With fries and mayonaise.) I'm VERY SICK of eating this, and none of their drinks are drinkable. They can't mix them to save their lives, and only have soda. Diet coke is apparently INVINCIBLE and really damned hard to fuck up.

I ate a soggy Chickfila sandwhich yesterday. It was sitting in chickfila so long, the bun was soggy and white. Eww. The chicken flavour was like, ten times stronger though. It was weird and horrifying.

I had a weird dream that I found a bouncing (yes, bouncing) grey and white kitten that I named sponge. I convinced my mom to let me keep him, but I somehow also got his daddy? Okay. So I took sponge andhis daddy home, where I apparently live with James, and we were chilling in our hot tub with kitties. (Suddenly, there were MORE. And in weird colours. One was GREEN.)

This is weird in that I HATE water, and James HATES kittens. Also, James would NEVER get in a situation that involved outside and no pants. ...I don't think I would either, no.

We also had a family that WASN'T OURS. But they lived with us, and were chillin with our hot tub and kittens too. It was weird. I remember us taking their kids to school, and eventually it all went into some kind of dream hell and started getting trippy.

Good things:
I have all my furniture picked! This is usually the LAST thing I do.

Plan: Make schedules this weekend. Need to install Excel and illustrator. Make layout for notebook. Do approximately FIVE MILLION purchase orders for furniture and friends. I dunno where I'm gonna get OIL PAINTINGS from. Can I supply those myself? ...Actually, that's worse than scedules, isn't it. D: Especially since I've never DONE an invoice before. D:
I need to make a MATRIX. Which is just fancy talk for a chart. (Took me four years to get that, yes.) Also, stupid illustrations for things I already know. Hrm.
I also need to make design concepts. (Yes, I have already designed it all. Whoops.) And then make in progress sketches. Whoops. D:

I need to hunt down Eric and demand work from him. Too bad I'll probably find a wild Celebi in my back yard before I find him. I don't think there's anyone more elusive.

I also apparently did WAY too many elevations for my cyber cafe. (See: I did THIRTY TWO. I apparently needed about NINE. Augh.) I also need to write out demolition notes. How much can you say about 'tear out and dispose of this fucking wall'? Apparently alot more than I'd say. You don't mention fixing the wall, or adding in new parts, cause that's something else. So what the hell do I say? Also, I don't speak fancy demolition talk very well. I also bet the people demolishing don't either.

Need to post the flower close ups I've taken. That might have to wait a week or two.

If ANYTHING disrupts me from my mission, I will cry. And maybe kill. Siegfried and I have spent so little quality time together. I'm sorry baby. I'll make it up to you. Maybe you need a new imaging program. Or tablet. Maybe camera. Hmm. Or FRIEND. I'm thinking I'm gonna buy a new computer since I'm working full time all summer.

bzzt.

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 07:29:41 GMT

Impartial hand surgical business.
They can't really work on my hands right now cause my arms and shoulders are way too screwed up.
I spent the day covered in wires and electrodes and general FUN.
I need more vibration therapy on my back. Hrm.

My arms and neck are REALLY sore. Wah.

I've been so sicklies these past few weeks, and horrendously over worked. (I made a cyber lounge, ceiling to door hinges in twelve hours. I cry only cry dust now.)

And then Judy drastically changed the order everything must be done in, and its confusing the fuck out of me. Augh.

I'm exhausted from this being electrified business, and now sleepies.

Uneventfully, but stressfully moving in a couple weeks. AUUUGH DO NOT WANT

mmm... lists...

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 08:18:02 GMT

All kittens need mittens.
Eric needs mittens, for he is a kitten.
I should make eric bunny mittens.
Examined bunny pelt.
Bunnies are too difficult to sew through while lazy.
Decided Eric should have other acessories.
I have a hat.
Eric needs a hat.
Decided to get him a beret.
Went to Build A Bear online.
They had no berets.
They DID have lederhosen.
Made mental note to buy lederhosen for other plushies.
Looked for plushie umbrella.
No plushie umbrella.
Decided to knit Eric a beret.
I only have one hand.
Knitting requires two hands.
Decided to crochet beret.
I don't know now to crochet.
Decided a scarf would be easier.
Decided to crochet Eric a scarf.
Realised I cannot crochet past one row.
Looked online for crocheting help.
Became even more confused.
Ran to my mommy for help.
My mommy couldn't even figure out I was trying to crochet.
Was questioned on why I was making the cat a scarf.
My mommy cannot teach me to crochet for she's left handed.
Was told crocheting also requires two working hands.
Dammit.
Crochetted a triangle.
...A triangle?
How the fuck did I do that?
Decided maybe I should try to make more triangles and sew together.
Hands cramped.
Went to Build A Bear for James's kitty shades.
Met gigantic bunny.
Gigantic bunny convinced me I needed a bunny.
Bought a bunny.
Refused to rub his heart all over me.
He's possibly bitter at me.
Got him boxers.
Possibly more bitter at me.
Nearly passed out at La Cantera waiting for Robin.
Went to Target.
BOUGHT SOCKS AND UNDERWEAR YEAH.
Started drawing stuff.
Was accused of being the cause of everything bad ever.
This is because I'm apaprently a vampire.
Had delicious steak.
Did laundry.
Oh shit, that new tea I've been drinking is FUNGUS?
...It's surprisingly delicious.
Chilled with naked-bunny.
Called Yinghua.
She didn't answer. :(
Have horrible headache.
Played sims.
Killed some NPCs.
Very sleepy.
Too sleepy to reply to stuff.
Need sleepies. D:
Going sleepies.

daww.

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 08:56:19 GMT

I made another digifamily! They're my crazy family. D:

The Chida family!

Led by REAL Mamiya!
He's like, my favourite sim EVER.
God I love him.

He's very gay.

I'm talking hand flipping gay.
He even has a Mikage. Daw.
(Yinghua LOVES them.)

He's happiest while getting it on in the hottub with Mikage.
(Notice, the lack of fire.)

Sometimes Mikage invites other people into their hottub of loooove.
(YOU LEAVE HIM ALONE MIKAGE.)
(THE SAME GOES FOR EVERYBODY. ESPECIALLY ME.)

MAMIYA. I KNEW IT!!
HOW COULD YOU!?!?

Mamiya and Mikage also live with six (well, now four) boys, all but one of which are vampires.

Gay vampires.

OH NO, NOT C-KO!!!

Oh wait, its cool.

My god Mamiya, at least wait until Death is gone. D:

Mikage found a victim. Some NPC.
HE WON'T DIE.
I find his lack of mortality disturbing. D:

My sim family is adorable.
I managed to get both kids at platinum at the same time.
James, Siegfried and Yinghua made it there too.
(James had days straight of nothing but family lovin, Yinghua saw a lifetime of ghosts in one night, and I don't know WHAT was with Siegfried, he'd jsut randomly go off.)

But allegoriest, what's the deal? I dont' see a Seifert in your family!
Well, I'm living my sim aspirations through Aileene.
I couldn't find good hair for me, and I can't fit any more people into that house.
I also enjoy living with Jae and sleeping with people that aren't Jae.

Speaking of Jae, she has a job as a llama or something...

Random bouts of Siegfried happiness.

FREDERIC IS SO CUTE.
But god, he's dressed like Eddie Munster. Augh.

James HATES the bathroom.
For some reason, EVERYTHING important happens in there.

I didn't play with Jeannie's family today. Touga and Edgeworth kept calling, but none of the other sims heard of her.
Need to visit her and my fated NPC tomorrow.

Noteable things of the week:

Kenshin pinata wut
hoooly crap sleep sicklies.
NOT LUPUS WHOO
Epic closet cleaning
Jennifer wake up calls
THE FRONT DOOR IS CRYING.
Yinghua ate pizza.
Holy crap I slept ALOT.

We FINALLY gave Eric a bath. He still smells funky, but alot less so now.
(He smelt lik microwave. X_x No, we didn't put the cat in the microwave, he was nestled against something that smelt like it. Poor baby.

Revolutionary Girl Utena: Black Rose Saga - Thumbnail Theatre

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 23:46:58 GMT

Disclaimer: Eventually in this, you will be required to sing, at least in your head. I well expect every single person who reads this to do so.
Disclaimer: It has bad words.
Disclaimer: I own Nothing. Absolutely nothing. :(

And with that, I bring you the Revolutionary Girl Utena: Black Rose Saga - Thumbnail Theatre.

Everybody goin down, goin down, goin down!

CHARACTERS THUS FAR:
(Really, all these guys were SO there last time. I swear.)

Utena Tenjou: Non conformity in pink!

Anthy Himemiya: Purple submission!

Touga Kiryuu: Red hot playboy! *being emo*

Kyoichi Saionji: Green with RAGE! *expelled*

Juri Arisugawa: ...Technically she's a red head you know.

Miki Kaoru: Little boy blue. He's quite the sissy.

Nanami Kiryuu: Blonde bombshell. Might be a racist pedophile.

Wakaba Shinohara: ...Nothing really special about her, no.

Kozue Kaoru: Miki's twin sister. Has a fear of pianos.

Shiori Takatsuki: Girl Juri's gay for. *left school a while back*

Mitsuru Tsuwabuki: Nanami's boy servant. Wants to be her big brother for some reason.

Nanami's Lackeys: Do Nanami's dirty work.

ChuChu: Chuchu, chu chuchuchu. Chuu.

Hundred Boys: You know, we never seem to see them around...

A-ko and B-ko: Members of Ohtori's fucked up drama club.

NEW CHARACTERS:

Souji Mikage: Gothy preistly man. Likes elevators.

Mamiya Chida: Sickly dude that looks like a lady. Gothy gay gardener who frowns on alliteration.

Akio Ohtori: The very familiar chairman someone neglected to mention. Also, he isn't new.

Kanae Ohtori: Don't mind her, she's just engaged to Akio.

C-ko: Freelance dramatist.

THE STORY THUS FAR:

Go read it your own damn self.

We're so dark and gothy.

Anthy, where the hell do you go Saturday night?

Oh, I go see my brother and stuff.

?!?!?!?!

Please take note of me touching my fiancee. This will not happen again.

I AM UNCOMFORTABLE.

Nah, its cool, really. I'm the acting chairman! Meet Kanae!

Hi! I hate aliens!! And have a DIRE NEED to get married.

^__^

Remember Anthy, we're family!!

^__^

Man I'm brilliant.

I'M NOT WORTHY. Also, I'm afraid of burning zombies since this place kinda burnt down once.

Btw Utena, thanks for not telling my brother I'm a horrible witch!!

It's cool, I don't wanna freak out Kanae about you.

GOD ANTHY FREAKS ME OUT. SHE SMILES LIKE AN ALIEN. PLEASE HELP ME

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

...That doesn't really rhyme...

It does if you don't think about it too much!

Oh...

...Well, I think you need to kick someone's ass. Oh, and kill the bride too.

HOLY CRAP, METAPHORS

NOT ...KANAE!!

RAAAAWR

RAAAAAAAAAWWWRRRR!!

Well, that sucked.

Delicious Anthy Saturdays...

Do I hate it? Do I love it? WHO KNOWS?

God I hate people who touch Miki.

CRAWLING IN MY SKIIIIIIIN

I must take his place!!

Man we're dark and gothy.

Let's take advantage of important people through people they love!!

I go through men like a... uhh... Well, I go through them pretty damn fast.

Anthy, you should meet my pedophile music teacher.

Not if I don't kill him first!! ...God I need help. To confessional!!

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

....That doesn't really fit.

I think you need to kick someone's ass.

Miki, I've come to steal your soul! ...Or your penis. ...But this sword from your chest will work too.

HOLY CRAP, METAPHORS

Why do I have to keep beating the crap out of every episode's new friend?

...That sucked as well.

HOME SHOPPING NETWOOOORK... SEBASTIAN DIOR?! DO WANT.

Man, these gothy episodes are bringing me down. So I went shopping, and have a party to celebrate MY NEW LUXURY COWBELL!!

And I've decided to take up knitting!!

Has anyone noticed anything... bovine about Nanami's behavior lately?

Seriously, that's a fucking COWBELL. For like... COWS.

Well, you're a dyke.

I made a sweater! Isn't it pretty and red?

Red makes me angry... And you don't want to see me when I'm angry...

OH SHIT, COW DUEL

Let's pretend this NEVER happened.

MIRACLES ARE LIES, I SHALL KICK ASS HOW BADLY I ANGST

HEY JURI!

MUST... RESIST... SEXY GOAT-NESS...

FINE, THE MAIN CHARACTERS WILL BE MY FRIENDS.

...Is anyone else worried that someone's out to get us?

I'm sorry for taking your man.

Who? Oh. Yeah, I'm pretty sure I was never into him.

btw Akio, I'm glad we're BFF now for no reason.

CONFIDE IN ME.

You know who's impulsively not going to be gay for Shiori anymore? Me. Yeah. I so mean this.

OH GOD JURI'S GAY FOR ME I FEEL DIRTY.

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

That doesn't really rhyme...

Well, you need like, see it in writing or say his name or something...

...Yeah, I think you need to kick someone's ass.

DON'T THINK SO

Why do all of you suck so hard?!

Rain? At MY Ohtori? It's more likely than I think!!

Seriously, these weird gothy duelists are out to get us. They have black rings and everything!

You guys are just paranoid. Also, grow some balls Mitsuru.

YEAH, GROW SOME BALLS

BUT I'M HAPPY WITH MY YOUNG, UNDERDEVELOPED BODY... I think....

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?!

OMG I LOVE THIS SHOW M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I!!!!!!!!!

Uhhh... Welcome.

I'm beginning to think I'm only here to kick our Friend of the Day's ass.

...When did Mitsuru become so... manly?

My life is fantastic!!

Hey! I'm Tatsuya! Love me!!

ONION PRINCE!! Actually, he's a huge playboy, stay away Utena.

Thanks for HUMILIATING me! D: Now reintroduce us.

I'm the new, unprofessional Touga!

I'm like Utena's private Dr. Phil, but without the pay!!

Tatsuya, you should SO get with Wakaba.

Except he's like... SO not my prince. I should go see the real one now!!

SOMEONE ELSE IS TOUCHING MY LADY. TO CONFESSIONAL!

Your sweetness sickens me. You do not belong in my basement of gothy.

SAIONJI, I'M HOOOOME~

OH WAKABA, MY BEAUTIFUL SAVIOUR~

God my life is fantastic!!

Wakaba, you've been... Kinda fantastic lately. Anything good going on lately?

...Hey, look at the time! Gotta go home!!

Don't worry, she'll be normal again soon.

And now, I have made a hairpin, to symbolize all that is good and Wakaba!!

Yeah, about that... I kinda need to give it to Anthy to get the plot rolling, AND I'll get you back in school!

...Can't argue that!

RAGE. STUPID SPECIAL ANTHY STEALING MY SPECIAL. FUCK SPECIAL PEOPLE

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?

I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS SONG AND DANCE SHIT.

Now that's what I'm talking about. You need to kick some ass.

MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY

NOT WAKABA!!!

So, the way I see it, I'm gonna kick your ass, take your lady, Touch her in bad places to see if I'm really a lesbian, cause I'm not really sure, then be popular cause I'll be dating the only black chick at school. ....After I kill her of course.

Yeah, if you REALLY cared, you'd know she's Indian.

I DON'T FUCKING CARE, I JUST WANT TO CUT THIS BITCH

I can't fight Wakaba!

I appreaciate your concern Utena-sama.

Foiled again. But at least we managed to reunite Saionji with the cast, so all is well.

Nothing fixes emo like a party! And we're gonna throw my brother the bestest party EVAR.

Oh Touga~~

But like, you can't come Keiko. Cause I'm like, an irresponsible bitch.

My plan to use Nanami to get close to Touga is really backfiring.

Do I smell floozies?!

None here ma'am!!

...tougasama?

I FUCKING KNEW IT

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I!!

Yeah, I know it doesn't rhyme, but you should go kill the rose bride.

...Can we kill Nanami too?

I don't see why not.

I've kicked alot of flavour of the day ass. Which is boring since every flavour's been black. ...Does that make them liquorice?

If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself. ...Hey, a mouse.

You found my mouse!

...Did you know a bunch of people like, burnt alive here once? This Nemuro guy and his hundred boys. Basement's full of zombies.

That's... terrifying. D:

Hey, I feel a flashback coming on. ...I think.

*flashback*

I have no interest in your gay rose ringed business.

Well, this is because you're boring and stupid and unfashionable. SO THERE.

Oh, how very boring and stupid and unfashionable I was.

Hi, I'm Tokiko Chida, and I'm here from the board to help manipulate you.

You know, I'm just not all that into you really.

Oh, how sickly and naughty I am~

GET YOUR ASS INTO BED.

...Though, I could go for some of that.

And I did.

...Well, he's not boring, but he's still stupid and unfashionable.

It's cool, we're gonna save you Mamiya.

I'm completely okay with dying.

And I'm completely okay with sucking Akio's face!

WELL FUCK YOU. I'M GOING TO BURN THEM ALL.

And I did. ...Well, actually, Mamiya did. ...I think.

*end flashback*

MONKEY ROBOTS MONKEY ROBOTS

Hey Akio, I know its been like thirty years, but I was here visiting Mamiya's grave, and I thought we could like, go for round two or something.

Hey, when did Tokiko come back? And why has everyone been calling her Utena? That's weird...

*flashback*

BUT WHY DID YOU KILL EVERYONE MAMIYA?!

*end flashback*

Have you ever considered joining a club... a club, that's made for you and me?

I did once, but they were all so mouse-centric, and that kinda was a turn off for me.

Well, mine is rose and angst centric.

That sounds sexy. I'll bring my gardener friend! Maybe me too!!

yesssss

HOLY CRAP HE'S THE ONE MAKING EVERYONE LICORICE FLAVOURED.

*flashback*

Dude, we like, SO got that guy eternity. Now he just has to trash Nemuro, and we're all cool.

You know, I think YOU deserve eternity, you should like, kick their asses.

Nah, that's stupid.

Are you suuuuure? It IS eternity. That's like, FOREVER. And that's like, longer than how long canned peaches last!!

Nah, I'm cool.

WELL FINE THEN. THEN NONE OF THEM WILL.

*flashback fading*

WHY MAMIYA?!

Because now, I will have eternity, Tokiko.

YOU BASTARD!! I'll kick your ass!

Well, now I'm sad. That hurt.

Woah, I'm taking through flashbacks man.

: I love you, flashbacks~ IN THE NAME OF FLASHBACKS, I WILL KICK HER ASS.
HOLY CRAP , METAPHORS

Uhh... have you noticed that like, Mamiya's black, but Tokiko's white, but they're like, siblings?

The hell you talking about?

Uhh, in the picture...

OH SHIT, YOU'RE NOT MAMIYA! YOU ALTERED MY FLASHBACKS, YOU BASARDS!!

WE DID. And it was fun too!!

Wait, we did what? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN THE LAST TWO MONTHS?!?!

*Black Rose Saga, End.*

Wait!! We forgot the part where my life sucks!! NOOOO COME BAAAACK

*Black Rose Saga Extra, End.*

MIKAGE SOUJI MARCH
(to the tune of 'Mickey Mouse March')
(Sorry, it starts like, 30 seconds in.)

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Hey there! Hi there! Ho there! You're as welcome as can be!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Mikage Souji!

(Kiryuu Touga!)

Mikage Souji!

(Kiryuu Touga!)

Forever let us hold our black rose high!

High high high!

Come along with mental baggage on

And wear a black rose for me!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Black Rose Seminar, Black Rose Seminar

We'll have fun and we'll make drama

: Because of all our emotional trauma

All around Ohtori we're lurking

*gay pedophile music teacher interlude*

Who's the leader of the club that's made for you and me?

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Hey there! Hi there! Ho there! You're as welcome as can be!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Mikage Souji!

(Kiryuu Touga!)

Mikage Souji!

(Kiryuu Touga!)

Forever let us hold our black rose high!

High high high!

Come along with mental baggage on

And wear a black rose for me!

M-I-K-A-G-E S-O-U-J-I

Yay Mikage! Yay Mikage! Yay Black Rose Seminar! Yaaaay!!

Something about us...

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 08:44:11 GMT

1. open your library (iTunes, winamp, media player, iPod)
2. put it on shuffle
3. press play
4. for every question, type the song that's playing
5. new question -- press the next button
6. don't lie and try to pretend you're cool

opening credits:
[Nakago's VA person] Blue Eyes... Blue
(This is clearly really about Jae. This worries me. D: )

waking up:
[Nine Inch Nails] Comfortably Numb (ooh, live!)
(i'm generally uncomfortably feeling everything when I wake up. Thanks for trying!)

first day at school:
[The Beatles] Being for the Benefit of Mr. Kite

falling in love:
[Toshi Ichiyanagi] (Ken Takakura Sings on Tadanori - Opera From The Works of Tadanori Yokoo)
...I think this is singing about a famous Japanese Graphic Designer... It's... kinda painful...

breaking up:
[Seramyu] Harsh! Saint Cry!
(Uhh... okay. Did we break up caus eI was gay? O_o)

prom:
[Blondie] In the Flesh
(!!! This is the slow dancing song!!! also, I didn't go to prom.)

life's okay:
[J.A. Seazer] Freedom
(I love this song, but I don't think its fitting really...)

mental breakdown:
[Tenjo Sajiki] Gentle Praise
(ooh. But... that's an ending song! D: )

driving:
[J.A. Seazer] Take Me to the Ends of the World
(FUCK YEAH)

flashback:
[Queen] Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy
(No! That's my theme song!!)

getting back together:
[Chopin] Nocturne Op.9 No. 2
(Daw.)

wedding:
[Yasushi Ishii] Bodhisattva Cathedral
(Wow, that's... pretty dramatic.)

birth of child:
[Nobuo Uematsu] One Winged Angel
(AHHHHHH)

final battle:
[ALI PROJECT] Seishoujo Ryouiki
(That's REALLY dramatic... Apparently I fight a bunch of goth loli )

death scene:
“Soul Survivor" by Young Jeezy

funeral song:
[J.A. Seazer] Child Bodhisattva
(Wait, I LOST? UNPOSSIBLE.)

end credits:
[Cure] Boys Don't Cry
(uhh...)

01. If someone says "are you okay" you say?
[South Park] What Would Brian Boitano Do?

02. How would you describe yourself?
[Nine Inch Nails] Big Man With A Gun
(Uhh... actually, that's not how I would describe myself.)

03. What do you like in a guy/girl?
[Nine Inch Nails] The Perfect Drug
(Twice in a row? And I guess that makes better sense.)

04. How do you feel today?
[Okui Masami] Sometimes, Love Will...
(uhh... No, I don't feel like that.)

05. What is your life's purpose?
[Disney] And He Shall Smite The Wicked
(Why yes! Because I'm a paladin!!)

06. What's your motto?
[The Cult] She Sells Sanctuary
(uhh.)

07. What do your friends think of you?
[Moulin Rouge] Meet Me In The Red Room
(...Well fuck you guys. D:< )

08. What do your parents think of you?
[Spice Girls] The Lady Is A Vamp
(...)

09.   What do you think about very often?
[Takako Minekawa] Pop up Squirrels
(FUCKING SQUIRRELS.)

10. What is your biggest turn-on?
[Moving Units] Blood Beats
(...Don't you say a word.)
(...What the hell IS this?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
[Oomph!] Hate Sweet Hate
(noooooooo DDD: )

12. What is your life story?
[J.A. Seazer] This is the Final Hell
(It best be.)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
[Shiro Sagisu] Good, Or Don't Be.

14. What do you think when you see the person you like?
[Daft Punk] Robot Rock
(...oookay.)

15. What will you dance to at your wedding?
[Kunihiko Ikuhara] The Absolute Destiny Apocalypse Club Mix J.A. Seazer Medly
(NO. ABSOLUTELY NOT.)

16. What will they play at your funeral?
[Daft Punk] Robot Rock (Maximum Overdrive)
(I clearly died of heartbreak.)

17. What is your hobby/interest?
[Nine Inch Nails] Suck
(...)

18.   What is your biggest fear?
[Hair[ Good Morning Starshine
(Well, the sun IS a star...)

19. What is your biggest secret?
[Mitsuhiro Oikawa] I Want to Be Your Fiancee
(NO IT ISN'T.)

20. What do you want right now?
[Asuka Sakai, Ado Mizumori] A Crimson Rose and a Gin Tonic
(Hey, that works.)

21. What is your obsession?
[ENERGY] Missing You
(Close enough!)

22.   What will your child's first words be?
[Tenjo Sajiki] Your Father Hates This Kind of Rock
(Let's imagine this actually happening.)

23. What do you say when you look in the mirror?
[The Beatles] You Won't See Me
(Don't you say a word.)

24. What is your opinion of sex?
[Nine Inch Nails and Garbage] Crushingly Close
(I guess. Also, this song sucks.)
(My god, so much NIN in this meme. D: Wtf.)

25. What will you post this as?
[Daft Punk] Something About Us
(Well, you're just makign me seem like a FANTASTIC person, meme.)

Tomorrow (today?) Is gonna suck. Auuugh. People trying to make my life miserable.

I hate holidays enough already, but I have to drag angry blind people around, and, that's not fun for anybody. It always involves seeing people I don't know, sitting for a long time on someone's couch while people who don't really like me attempt to make small talk. While I'm a babysitter and German translator.

I can't babysit. I've lost Eric in the car. The car has two seats. D: I still don't know how I did that.

I might add, my German is terrible. D: My name is so very misleading.

I'm developing SERIOUS replacement issues. It's getting ALOT worse than my rejection complex from hell. Which uhh, is pretty serious business. D:
I dunno what the hell I'm gonna do with that.

My digifamiliy. Let me show you them.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 07:42:31 GMT

I did something terrible. Something AWFUL.

Siegfried and all were playing Sims. And for whatever reason, I decided to too.

My first family was Aileene, James, Yinghua and Siegfried.
Either James or Siegfried was gay, but I never figured out which one. First Aileene hated everything, and then James went crazy. James started fighting with Siegfried and Yinghua, and they left. O__o

Unfortunately, James apparently had all the cash, and they died. I went to try to save them, and during that time, Aileene got pregnant, and neither of them can cook. She'd cook something, and James would eat it! Eventually, she was SO tired and hungry, she just passed out in the kitchen, and James went upstairs to sleep. Then Death came for her, and he couldn't grovel because HE WAS ASLEEP. You know, she would have probably given birth the next day. D: You jerk.

James also LOCKED HER in their bedroom until she like, wet herself and was screaming and crying. YOU JERK.

Sim Yinghua was kinda evil too. She also tried to kill us via flames several times. D:

At least she had the decency to put it out herself.

She did have some things in common with normal Yinghua though.

Like that.

And that.

Eventually, James stopped KILLING US and everyone was happy.
Ironically, his new ambition in life is to let Aileene LIVE.

DAW. HOW SICKENINGLY CUTE AND IMPOSSIBLE.

Look, I even made Jae. She's chillin with Frederic.
When he was a baby, he looked like a chibi Kadaj. I dunno WHERE this Yazoo hair came from.

We're all so happy.

Though I think Jaelyn might be evil.

Vlad too. He wants to be a criminal.

O__o

Sometimes, James looks like Leon, and sometimes he just looks weird.
(AHH, GRILLED CHEESE NOOOO)

I might add, that for some reason, EVER Y sim is like, madly in love with James, EXCEPT Jae.
Which makes sense I guess, cause, eww.

We have neighbors now too.

They tried to kill us. :(

"You're not dead!!"

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 20:10:12 GMT

AUUUGH. I've been so sick lately. D:
Today on the way to Judy's class, I could not only feel, but HEAR my intestines shifting, while I was outside. D:
She wasn't there, so I left a question and went back to lay down. Oh, my insides. X_x

I've apparently been pretty depressed for several years, but haven't cared enough to take things for it. However, that mixed with my inherent RAGE is making my body do fabulous things, like not digest. So I apparently need to take anti depressants so I can digest again. (Seriously, it takes me like, an hour sometimes to finish digestion.)
While I haven't had OH GOD WHYYY cramps, I HAVE been feeling insanely BLEH feeling and missed the last week or so of my life.

They're trying to save the remainder of my left side, cause, uhh, I'd kinda like having that. I can't have shoulder surgery, cause one, I don't want someone cutting in me, and two, it apparently isn't very well developed. Apparently, I could lose the two fingers I still have. D: (I'm currently missing three and a half or so- I can't move the end of one of them.) I'd end up with two thumbs and two and a half fingers. D:

Eric is stinky as HELL.

He's SO GROSS he needs a baaath augh.

I got a DSi! He's so cute.
The camera and music stuff are surprisingly fun. My dad bought me Pokemon Platinum~ (I'm very surprised.) I chose Piplup and he's at level 59 now. He kicks poke ass for only being a few hours old.

rei_kun I'd imagine you more as a PS3. More big and powerful, as opposed to my chibi chibi DSi.

I think I'm secretly in like with Zac Efron. Whoever the hell he is.

Need car insurance gyaaaargh

Also, have a picture, gift for someone.

in progressy shot.
Want to put the last hand over his other one. Need to give him and arm. D:
Also, I clearly have no sense of scale. D: